Can't understand myself.

Hello everyone.
I'm quite new to this. And I just wanted to share my story and Idesperately want some advice. So I'm 24 rn. About 4 5 uears back i was in a relationship and it was pretty serious. A lot of times we got heated and humped each other but never actual sex occured. Then at some point of time we broke up because of miscommunication issues and diff job timings. And i couldnt bring myself to love anyone like I loved her. I couldn't open up to anyone like i did to her. The relationship lasted like about 3 years so i have been single for like 2-3 years roughly. Since then I have been watching porn (obviously) to curb my desires and loneliness. I watched before too but it was rare. I rarely overdid it with masturbation. Usually it was like once a day before sleeping to help me sleep fast for like 10 15 days straight. Then i would just stop masturbating entirely for 10 12 days. This was the pattern. So a couple of days ago me and a guy friend of mine drank like 3 4 beers each. And I thought to myself that I'm not getting any younger and maybe it's time i lost my virginity and experience what sex is. So I went to a professional girl to get laid. But what happened next shocked me. Usually i get hard like a fucking iron rod but when she was straddling me and there was some heated moments I didn't got excited. My lil guy was just sleeping. I was quite embarrassed but loaded so much that i didn't cared. Just got up and got home and slept. Mind you that it qas almost 1 in the night. Since then I have been questioning myself that if that was cuz i had been watching porn too much that I'm not getting excited by an actual woman OR cuz of beer OR cuz i was nervous OR too damn tired ( i wake up at 7 and workout for about an hour then 9-7 office and after that we had beer and drove motorbikes for about 20 kms to get to the place ). I don't understand which of these factors should i take into consideration. I know im straight. When i watch porn i do need external stimuli to get myself raring but when im up it become a fucking iron rod. Lol. Please help me.
Ps. When i used to make out with my gf i used to get hard as soon as our lips touched. I used to get off 2 3 times before we both became a sweaty mess. Its just i dont understand what has gone wrong now.

 

I just translated this. Sorry i dont understand this language bro. Thanks for cheering me up. I still didn't understood why that happened. Is it cuz i watch porn or masturbated for so long. That i have forgot about this or was i told loaded to get horney.

 

I guess you're right. Actually now that i think about it I was so loaded that the next morning I was having a hangover and it lasted until I drank a black coffee. I don't think I'll find myself a gf anytime soon. I lead quite a different lifestyle you see. In my profession there's a lot of interaction with females but i cant make my move as it can very much damage my reputation.
Online dating is just horrible. Its pay to play on every app. No real profiles. So i have decided that the next time I'll get laid I'll abstain from beer. Turns out that beer is a sort of anti aphrodisiac. I read on certain articles on internet.

 

Ikr!!! Half of the girls are uninterested or talk shit like " dont bother im just bored " or some shit like this. And the other half are there for promoting their instagram. SMH. Yesterday I did something that made me feel really better. I left swiped everyone for 10 min straight. lol i felt like my self respect was coming back to me.
Yea man PMO is definitely not good. The main reason is that after orgasm we should feel good and better but most of the guys feel quite opposite. Ashamed, lonely and uninterested to name a few and that's the worst thing. Orgasm should make us feel better not like a worm. I ain't gonna fap. I have decided. Hope i stay strong.