this is my list
1. Losing eyesight. I used to wear glasses but lost more vision after PMO till I did laser operations few years ago. Now I believe I am starting t lose again
2. Short Height. I was doing fine till I embraced PMO monster. I have caused a huge imbalance to my hormones. All my friends and family members are taller than me and I am just 160cm.
3. Kidney stones. I have ruined my kidneys for sure. I have 4 operations of kidney stones in last 2 years and 6 overall in life cause of heavy PMO. I have experimented on some days with PMO o know for a fact that PMO is the leading cause. Kidney issues can trigger all sort of other issues in body.
4. I triggered purpura (viral disease which I believe was wrong diagnosis, I was just deficient in calcium and phosphorus) after 2 years of started PMO. My veins in stomach and legs were bleeding I could see blood spots from under the skin. I suffered three years with it but once I took phosphorus and calcium and stopped PMO a bit, it went away like a ghost.
5. I have triggered psoriasis (autoimmune issue, which I know for sure is cause of my stomach lining has become extremely thin cause of PMO and losing essential fluids every day. Purpura was also something similar)
6. Hair Loss. Those who say it is not linked are completely wrong. I have seen ruining my hair over the years.
7. Hyper pigmentation. My skin has developed dark patches at many spots and my face is also turning black. Nobody knows why I am having more melanin production but I know its PMO (not an illusion, I know how melanin increases on days when I do it heavily)
8. Extreme pores on face and acne issue. I have them all the time, didn’t used to have it much even around puberty but after two decades of PMO, I look dreadful)
9. Deformed bone structure. I have deformed shoulder shape and neck shape cause of all the bad positions I have been using to masturbate. I always lean on my left elbow for that and that spot has turned very dark and nothing on the right elbow. I stay in that position even after my legs and body start feeling pain. I have gained around 25kg in 3 years and my little efforts of weight loss are failing miserably. I look like a fat deformed pig with weird back and neck shape, all thanks to my PMO habits in bed. I have developed several lipomas over the last decade and have been checked for cancer. I know that chemical imbalance I have created in my body is showing its symptoms through such things.
10. Frequent urination. Also distress in path between left kidney and urethra. Did ultrasound couple of times but nothing there. Feels little bit better if I do not do PMO for couple of days (which is rare).
11. Extreme heart burn and acid reflex. I woke up many times choking on food during nights. Doctors have told me it is linked with stress and I know what causes stress and imbalance of chemicals inside my body- PMO
12. Fatigue and body shivers. My body is constantly in pain cause of stress, chemical loss due to PMO, lack of normal life movements and autoimmune problems. Normal pain killers do not work for me anymore (I do not try them regular, only when fatigue or pain goes out of control). I have to take steroid medicine to get rid of extreme fatigue, which basically just suppress my immune system so that I do not temporarily feel pain and fatigue.
13. Brain fog has reached extreme level. From being a bright student to almost 100% numb, on some days I would stare at one line of coding for hours, not knowing what to do next. I have been fired from previous job cause I was unable to perform at all and I had to take emergency sick leaves many times. I still landed in a similar position but again I did not give up PMO and I am still performing extremely bad.
14. Breathing issue. Tissues inside my nose have swollen (and so are other things inside my body e.g. tonsils). I had an operation but they grew back within one year and I cannot breathe properly at night. I snore so loud that I have to sleep in a separate room alone. I know for sure my chemical imbalance and nutrients deficiency is linked to it.
15. Social anxiety. I try to show off in front of others that I am a confident person but I know I am not anymore. I see other people doing lot of activities in in their life and I try to avoid everything, just because I do not want to do anything anymore. Nothing seems to make sense and I would rather waste time in PMO than spending it with others.
16. Chest Congestion. This is a recent development and although I am not extremely fat ( I am around 83kg, 160cm), I have started to have pain around my chest. I perform badly if I play any sport. All the amateur friends would perform better by default even if they are at same level at mine. Sometimes they make fun of my looks and shape but not in a bully way, perhaps they feel pity for me because they know me since teen age and they know how I used to look normal person and now what I have turned into. They often question me what’s going on and I just tell them these are unknown medical reasons.
17. Pins and needles feeling. If i start running even a bit or try to lift any heavy object, i have extreme pins and needles sensations all over head, full back and shoulders. I have asked multiple doctors but no one knows exactly how to treat. Some say it might mean lack of some vitamin, some say its a good sign of neurons opening up. What I know it that it is not a good thing as I am suffering from it since 6 years. It is extremely irritating feeling and perhaps my bad postures and excessive laying down in bed during PMO has made lot of veins numb and also I perhaps lack essential nutrients
I might have forgotten somethings in the above list but this is the overall life right now.
I'm sorry you're going through this, I can relate big time. Here's my list
1.) Extreme mid/upper back pain (not spine, more like muscles)
2.) Burning skin in various areas, not hot, but like they have acid on them
3.) Breathing issues - shortness of breath and sometimes a strange feeling when I breath out, like a vacuum and then its like I have to remember to breath back in, like its not automatic
4.) Rib pain whenever I apply any pressure to them, I can't lay on my sides or stomach
5.) Bad heartburn and a constant sour taste in my mouth (probably from the acid)
6.) Muscle pain across my shoulders
7.) Headaches (before gabapentin, thats the only thing the medication really helped with)
8.) Extreme fatigue at times
9.) Dry mouth/ chapped lips
10.) Very bad eye floaters
11.) Pelvic pain
12.) Depression (probably because of the pain)
13.) Sleep issues
I don't always experience every symptom at the same time, they come in and out. There may be more, but thats most of it
Have you ever tried or heard of kratom? Its a natural pain killer that is similar to an opiate, but acts on different areas of the brain. You don't need a prescription and it is fairly safe as far as I know. I'm no expert or medical professional, so I don't want to tell you to try something that may be bad for you, so do your own research, but I did plenty of research of my own and concluded that it was worth a try. I've been using it for about 4 or 5 months now and its been a lifesaver. Literally, I came very close to suicide because of the pain and kratom gave me just enough relief to stop me. Its not perfect by any means, I still feel lots of pain and there are some pains it doesn't touch at all, but it really takes the edge off. Some people seem to get even more relief than myself. I don't know if it would help your specific issue or not, you mentioned your body being in constant pain, but I'm not sure what kind of pain, either way though, it may be worth looking into. It can also help with mental issues like anxiety and depression. Its helped me in that area, but from what I've read, tolerance to the mental effects kicks in faster than tolerance to the pain killing effects. Anyway, I didn't mean to ramble on about kratom, but maybe it'll help. If nothing else, it might help out until you can reboot and heal yourself that way.
