Complete recovery

DAY 10:
i feel empty sometimes. like it's harder to live. i know it's the flatline and it's just my minds playing tricks on me, so i am hanging in there.

anyone got any tips? feeling worse than usual isn't really nice....

on the plus side: 10% done!

 

thank you my friend: I can promise here on this public thread that i will definitely give it a 30 days shot.

 

for some reason i replied to you but the reply has not been posted. i used a hotspot there must have been a connection issue.

at any rate - i actually did decide to try your program FOR 30 DAYS, today being the first day. i will do it once every day at least.

 

DAY 10 + 11:
for some reason (probably - like i said in the reply above - because i used unstable connection) myday 10 post did not upload to this thread, so i'll summarize it with day 11:

energy is unstable. i start to get downs in energy/mood. sometimes it's like it's suddenly harder to live. suddenly i am tired, and feel like collapsing and going to sleep. unfortunately, can't exactly sleep while working...

i know it's my mind playing tricks on me, but the process is still not very fun...

 

day 12:
really tough day. energy and mood is unstable. urges....
it's starting to get difficult.

 

day 13:
slightly better but still no walk in the park.
still happy i finished 13% of the journey...

man i really do want to get better....

 

day 14:
mood is still decreased. man i hate this period....
then again, it nice knowing i have abstained myself for the past 2 weeks...

hope this ends soon and will start feeling better soon.

 

thanks!
to be honest, at least today, that is exactly how i am feeling.
urges are now slightly reduced but mood is elevated.

i actually do have a plan if an urge emerges - using the P.A.T.H formula and as far as availability for P, i kinda have a new job nowdays that destroys P availability for me.

thank you for your comment!

 

DAY 15:
feeling WAY better than yesterday.
mood is elevated.
urges are back, but manageable.

maybe i really do need to stop counting days soon....
well, let's see how tomorrow goes.

 

day 16:
pretty good. same as yesterday. have urges, but are manageable.
nothing new to report so far

 

day 17:
starting to view this challenge as a lifestyle.
which is not something i am used to.
still better than yesterday, but hoping i won't experience any flatlines anymore.

 

day 18:
should probably stop counting days, but still am.
today was a lot harder than yesterday, probably because getting in a new routine is not very comfortable.
not as much enthusiastic as yesterday.
questions to the experienced: after getting into a high streak? do you still get 'bad days' as often as you had before stopping pmo? by bad days i mean no motivation, lack of enjoyment....

 

day 19:
building good habits, but it's not easy. at all. i woke up at 8 am and it's 5 pm where i am from and i am TIRED.
i suppose with enough time it's going to get easier...
19% of the challenge done

 

DAY 20:
achieved '20 percent done' milestone.
i am getting better, as a person at least. but the process is painful.
it's asking for a lot, and constantly.

i still have to move on.

 

DAY 21:
i swear to god, sometimes the things i do makes me think "god save my soul".
the actual transformation of my life is not joyous. at all.

it's letting go of people, and starting to live your life at a completely different way.
forcing yourself to do the right and painful things instead of the wrong and fun ones....

so yhea.... god save my soul

 

day 22:
getting better, a lot to do....
i think this is it. i am pretty sure this is the best i am going to feel energy wise.
it's manageable, but not exactly overwhelming. maybe because i am pushing myself....
still, getting close to a full month now.

 

day 23:
so i am one week away from 30 DAYS!
nice....
still feel like more needs to be done. i still at times feel more like a boy than a man grown.
back to work i guess...

 

day 24:
i think i might be flatlining again. oh well...
not quite as energetic as yesterday, but can still operate.
so far i am okay...