It was going to be a different beginning, but... I feel sad, angry and weak. When I see someone relapses after 185, you know what I think of? I be like "What if I do the same after 100 days?" and that scares me. Maybe it doesn't matter what day you are on. You just need to protect every single day against Evil desires. But it's so hard. I remember my longest streak was 40 Days (watching some P on Day like 20). In that time, I used to pray every single morning at 5:00 AM. Talking to God made me feel so calm and happy. It was like a meditation. I failed this time because I thought it's easy. Also, I didn't do anything to change my terrible lifestyle. Every day, I play video games for hours which makes me feel tired and empty. I wanna do many useful things this summer but I've wasted my time with PS4 so far. Daily exercises, Reading books, Improving my handwriting, Bates method, Coding, Hanging out with friends, Waking up at 5:00 AM and praying... I really wanna do these things. It's exactly 45 Days until my Birthday. so... LET'S DO THIS!