Dealing with surfacing emotions

I had a hard childhood and that’s what led me to Be addicted to porn And masturbation. These were my escape measures and provided a alternate world when faced with situations I could not change.

I’m on NoFap since the last 5 days. Yesterday was hard but I am better today, however a lot of my emotional trauma is coming to the surface now and it feels very raw when this happens. This inevitably leads to edging since it helps me release some stress. I can’t talk to anyone about it since I don’t think anyone would understand, it is the conditioning of my mind to experiences.

I am facing these fears now, but I am scared that I will relapse if another stressful episode beyond my control happens. Any tips to get rid of the emotional trauma? And is edging okay?