Hi All, I'm not sure if it's okay to write here because we broked up year ago and I'm not 100 % sure he was /is addicted to porn or not. If it's not okay writing here please let me know. At this stage I would like to apologies for bad grammar, interpunction and spelling. English isn't my first language. We are not together for so long and like in the title it's all done and dusted for him but not for me. Maybe because I didn't get all the answers I needed. I'm still very confused about why it all happened , the way it ended. Or maybe like my ex told me I'm crazy and overreacting. I'm not new to this forum.I found you year ago.Since that I'm here on daily basis. I follow your posts and journals.I didn't post much but I lerned a lot from you and this forum in general . You are ALL amazing and unbelievable strong in your battles for love. Unfortunately I'm not like you. It's over 1 year from the DDAY and over 1 year from the day we broked up but still I can't pull my shite back together and move on. I made some progress but I'm very very far from recovery yet. It feels like all this happened just yesterday. Endless nightmare. I have no support from friends. I have nobody to talk.I'm on disability allowance due to PTSD ,adjustment disorder , depression.I was hospitalised twice last year .I'm on strong meds .It helps keep me away from hospital alright but can't save me from my pain. So if you are fine with me writing here I will continue. Please let me know. Greetings. A.