Doubt on how much PIED vs how much physical

Guys, I have been checking the site on and off for about 6 years but was never active on it. This pandemic for different reasons has allowed me to start a reboot that I am feeling very good / strong about it and I am thinking that for the first time in my life I will be able to make to at least 90 (I still have about 40 days left). I have tried reboots a few times through the years and I don’t think I have to tell you how difficult they are…the best I did was once that I made it to about 50ish days.

It all started about 8 years ago that I had a chance to have sex with a good looking finish girl and I could not get it up. I was already kind of thinking something felt different when I masturbated. I did not know what to think. I had been watching porn and masturbating pretty consistently for a couple of years but I did not think that I was addicted or that I was doing it too much…at least not much more than anyone else.

After the first time, it happened couple more times and then I realized that this was going to be a very big problem in my life. I panicked. I found this website and tried to reboot but was never able to fully complete a reboot.

I did start cutting porn very significantly, but the no MO part was extremely difficult. As time passed goroman and himsbecame available for Sidenafil so I got some. With that I was able to have sex with girls and even a couple of actual relationships. Even though this allowed me to have sex, thesensation was not the same… I was a bit (or maybe very) numdown there and having sex was not really very pleasurable.

One day doing PIED research I read an article from a doctor talking about PIED and saying that if you were in doubt to make an appointment and go get checked out. So I did. This dr is very expensive and he did all sorts of tests on me. I am 35ish healthy individual in good shape. His conclusion was that my free testosterone was on the low side and that there seems to be something off with the blood flow to my penis as when they did an ultrasound the speed of blood flow to the penis was on the low side. I guess at the moment that result made me feel almost relieved cause that meant maybe there was actually something wrong with my body and it was not PIED. He put me on daily Tadalafil and after a couple of months he put me on Clomid. So I started watching porn again…less than before but more that I should. The Clomid was a disaster and I got out of it… I did not like it. A few months later I got the shockwave theraphy…that did help some with erections at the beginning but I still was dependent on Sidenafil and Tadalafil…this went on for about 9 months.

Right before the pandemic my girlfriend was sick and because of that I was not planning on having sex with her..that particular week I had been watching more porn than usual. I went to visit her and ofcourse she wants to have sex…I take a couple of Sidenafils right before but I was dead down there. We tried again the next morning and same thing. I was so embarrassed and I guess at that point something that I had suspected for a while sinked in….maybe after all I did have PIED. That is when I decided to start a brand new reboot and decided I wouldconquer or die on this one. I still many times wonder how much is it PIED that I have; and how much it is an actual physical problem (if any).

I was wondering if anyone has similar experiences. Maybe they though it was PIED and it was not or vice versa after going to the dr. Once again apologies for the long note and keep fighting the good fight!!