Edging/homosexual tendencies looking to quit

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Chancey, Jul 21, 2018.

  1. Chancey

    Chancey Fapstronaut

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    Dear All,

    To introduce myself, i am a 23 year ikd virgin male who has been hooked to same sex porn since puberty, however, never been with anyone from either gender. I feel attracted to the same gender and anything from muscles to shorts to a good accent can be a turn on.
    I usually relapse on the weekends through edging and video camming where each sesssion could last from 3-6 hours(!!!).

    I really wanna just quit this, so please help me out!
     
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  2. Jack of Clubs

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    Its good that you are willing to question whether your own sexuality honestly. It is currently taboo to suggest to someone they may not actually be gay, but given what we know about how porn can affect people, its likely that there is a staggering amount of guys who would've been regular straight guys if porn hadn't warped their brain.

    Be warned: extremely long edging sessions will likely cause you to have delayed ejaculation (DE) problems, you might be able to get hard but you won't be able to ejaculate, it sounds ridiculous but your brain has very likely wired itself now to only see internet porn as arousing and the real thing will have no impact.

    I would treat edging as the most important thing for you to avoid, in fact a lot of us think that edging may be the absolute worst thing you could possibly do.
    Quit porn asap, but if you do fail, at least make an effort to finish quicker.
    When you are quitting, you will have a lot of sexual thoughts enter your head, because your sexuality is unclear right now, you need to be vigilant when these thoughts come up. Acknowledge them but quickly move on, redirect your focus to something more productive.
    You might actually be straight all along and this may possibly bubble to the surface when your system is finally purged of porn addiction.
     
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  3. Jason_Tesla_19

    Jason_Tesla_19 Fapstronaut

    30yo virgin male here. I never had any attraction to males at all before beginning MO in puberty, and then it was very rare, and I never fantasized about it. After getting into P as an adult, I started noticing more attraction to males IRL, and my P habits escalated into occasional gay or TS stuff, and I began fantasizing occasionally. I can only see myself as ever being in a serious relationship with a woman, though. I only ever really have any attraction to males when my dopamine is through the roof - I haven't had alcohol or tobacco in over two years, and I only ever get cravings when my dopamine is extremely high. I'm not sure, but I might naturally be a 1 on the Kinsey scale, or I might not. I need to reboot. PMO definitely makes things worse, and causes all sorts of weird things like HOCD. Sometimes gay people will have the opposite and start to wonder if they're straight! I think if you're worried about it, then that means it's not really who you are - it's causing cognitive dissonance. There are various threads on HOCD both here and over at YBOP.
     
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  4. Chancey

    Chancey Fapstronaut

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    Thank you guys. Your responses mean a lot to me. I am looking for an accountability partner as we speak and will hopefully be able to quit this soon.

    More power to you guys!
     
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  5. toomuchfapping

    toomuchfapping Fapstronaut

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    i have similar problems witho homosexual tendencies and edging. just hit me a pm
     
  6. perversemusharaf

    perversemusharaf New Fapstronaut

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    40 years, straight, severely addicted porn addict here. Excuse me but if your main problem is that you have homosexual fanatasies, you might not have a problem at all. Try it out or don't. In either case, it is not a big deal. Remember there are degrees between homosexual and heterosexual and there also is bisexuality. Not to speak of "men who have sex ith men": self-identified straight guys who engage in same-sex sex. My point is that aiming at sexual health and aiming at 100% heterosexuality are two very different things. And one is allowed to have fantasies without wanting to realize them too. That is my 2 cents
     
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  7. Chancey

    Chancey Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for the response.
    I believe that my issues are P induced hence go hand in hand.
     

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