Empezar de nuevo.

I just want to say I think what your mother said was incredibly uncharitable and you should not believe a word of it. It is not selfish or mean to want your own space as an adult, and there is a difference between not wanting to share and not wanting to be stepped on and mistreated.

Again, I don't know what your situation is in terms of leaving, however, if you can't leave then I would try to save some money so when this kind of thing happens, you can get yourself a hotel room for a night or two.

 

Happy Birthday Keli! May you find freedom from your sadness for awhile today and may you find many things to smile about. May Our Lord Bless you today just as He did when he breathed life into your soul the very first time.

Also today remember the words of St. Therese of Lisieux, "The worlds thy ship and not thy home".

 

I was going to say the same. For a variety of reasons, you may decide to accept the situation and endure the uncharitable behavior of your parents towards you. But it should not be the same as believing that their behavior is justified. I hope you can find some peace in this, either by deciding to endure these sufferings in love, or by making changes in your life. I know this can be very difficult either way. I pray the Lord shows you what His will is for you regarding this situation. No matter what His will is, it will be to your benefit because He loves you to the point of death.

 

Happy Birthday, Keli!

Praying you have a great day today!

 

¡Feliz cumpleaños, Keli! Que Dios te bendiga hoy y siempre.

 

That's great to hear! God is wonderful... with the discomfort of the visit, He also made it easier for you to stay faithful.

I had a (kind of) similar experience yesterday. At Mass yesterday I wasn't going to receive communion, because I haven't been to confession yet. But my in-laws were beside me in the pew, so I was worried about them wondering why I am just receiving a blessing, etc. As it turns out, the communion line went the other way that day, so I ended up behind them and they didn't see me. Of course I shouldn't worry that way about what people think. And it could've been just chance. But it felt like God, in His kindness, was saving me from a bit of shame because I had made the right decision.

 

It was a fantastic run, so don't let this fall throw you into despair. This run was proof that the steps you're taking in your recovery are going in the right direction. Get up, dust yourself off, and get back to moving forward!

 

Let's try living as if it has already arrived! What would the 500+ day you do today?

 

You had a great streak, Keli. You can do it again, and more! All that matters is that we keep trying and making efforts.

I relate to that a lot. In my last few falls, when the temptation struck, it kind of exploded out of control really fast. But, there were also some precursor signs, like I was procrastinating, afraid of something, or something like that. We need to learn to recognize the situations and emotional conditions that most often precede a fall.

 

This is true, and I have been noticing that my trigger usually happens a couple days prior to a relapse and not simply the day of the relapse.

 

Yes! It all hinges on what we do with that initial trigger, doesn't it? Do we feed it, nurture it, or stamp it out/let it fade?

 

I must admit that a change in my circumstances helped me to conquer this sin. I had a very high stress job and, among other things, I indulged in PMO to procrastinate from work as well as give myself comfort from the constant demands. Despite the fact that I truly wanted to quit committing this sin, I could not manage to do it.

I retired from that job and have begun working in my own small concern where I can set my own hours. Even after I retired it took awhile for me to put an end to it. Perhaps the most influential thing which I have gained from this change is the fact that I do not feel guilty (well not much anyway) for devoting time each day to this forum, to some prayer and also I can now listen to religious texts or music while I work.

With hindsight, had I devoted my heart more fully to the Lord, before I retired, I think I could have overcome this sin during that time but I felt guilty and was lazy about giving God my time in this way. Truly I was misguided but it was my reality during those days.

 

Have you heard of the Opus Dei and St. José Maria Escrivá? He writes about sanctification through work, how even the simplest labor can be a means towards holiness.