Hi Guys, I 37 , when i was 16 , my friend in high school invited me to his home.he had a computer and he had many erotic videos in his computer. then he showed me one erotic video.i never ever had seen any erotic video before that. i saw some erotic picture in some newspapers and magazines and masturbated with them before that videos. 1 years later , my brother bought a computer and connected to internet with dial up connection(2002)! i told to my freind i could connect to net and he suggested to me a porn page address for the first time. I bought internet cart for my brother on that day. at night my brother went to my sister's house and slept there. WOW i alone with a computer and internet and an porn address site!!(At that time, search engines were not so advanced.) in midnight , I could not sleep and I was thinking a lot about that site. Finally i wake up and turn on computer (Without turning on the light in darkness.) i type that adress and I felt an evil black spirit permeate me and i addicted to porn until today. Porn got all things , replace with relations and emotions and other something. My body became weaker and weaker day by day, and I masturbated up to 5 times a day. I masturbated before i watch porn but It took a long time from the onset of lust to masturbation, maybe an hour. but after i addicted to porn i masturbated in 30 secend !!! and i did over and over. I'm sure this time God will help me win a big semen retention challenge for two years. inshallah!! semen retention help me to be strong than before and i feel my mind is better work and my memory has increased. thank for reading and i glad to hear your comment.
