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Has anyone else been through this?

Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by popoline1, Aug 27, 2017.

  1. popoline1

    popoline1 Fapstronaut

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    I'm not really sure if what I'm experiencing is directly linked to porn. I started masturbating at around 11 years old, and only started watching porn when I was 13. For the next 5 years, I masturbated quite regularly maybe, once or twice a week. When I turned 16 and my hormones were going crazy, I had to masturbate every day otherwise I couldn't sleep because of my sexual urges, everything was going fine, I had very strong erections all the time, had an incredibly high sex drive, but I had conditioned myself to ejaculate as soon as possible (usually after a minute or two of watching porn).

    However everything suddenly changed a couple of months after that when I went to university, my libido suddenly dropped, I stopped getting morning and spontaneous erections, started getting tired, had depression, by that time I was masturbating around once every couple of weeks, I was doing it more out of habit than out of actual need. I experienced severe premature ejaculation with the first girl I had sex with (ejaculated after 10 seconds) and with most of the girls after that. I went to a doctor to get my thyroid levels checked and everything was fine. I don't know what to do, I am honestly contemplating suicide.. I'm only twenty and I can't imagine living like this anymore. Even if I don't masturbate for weeks, my sex drive is still incredibly low and I don't see what the point is. I hardly ever watch porn now as I don't feel like it at all. I want to regain my erections and stop PE for good.Has anyone else been through this?

    *PS: When I first started masturbating, it used to take me forever to cum, now even if I 'm not aroused and I have a semi boner, it only takes about 3 minutes to ejaculate.
     
  2. sortyourselfout

    sortyourselfout New Fapstronaut

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    Don't let this get you down man. You are still the captain of your life. I remember in high school, masturbation and porn desensitized me to real, genuine emotion. I felt inexplicably numb. The only thing that I felt was the pain and shame of porn. I didn't find victory yet but I kept fighting because I knew that even though pain sucks and shame is so heavy, the very fact that I felt something meant that I was still alive and able to fight. I didn't win then, I still haven't gotten to where I am going. But the older I get the more I realize how true it is that we are all unfinished projects. Every person that you meet has their own difficulties and insecurities and failures that they have to deal with. Everyone suffers. Your suffering is unique to you in that no one else truly knows what it is that you go through. You must bear it; and you can bear it. But there are those that can help you share the weight. This website is a resource. There are communities all over the internet that can help you. I am in no way an expert in psychology, depression or sexual physiology but I urge you to keep fighting because I am sure there are others who have experienced similar issues. Refuse to let go of the vision of life that you want.
    Much love brother.
     
  3. D . J .

    D . J . Fapstronaut

    Welcome to NoFap where you are amongst friends who are here to encourage you and sometimes challenge you but not judge you.

    The enemy is here to steal, kill and destroy. What are your current strategies for combating the enemy called PMO?
     

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