Hello everyone. I've stopped by this forum from time to time and checked out a few threads. But never posted anything. The first time I checked it out I ended up feeling more hopeless to see so many other people with the same problem struggling to find a solution. Another time I got triggered by a post and decided maybe it wasn't what I needed. But, I'm here to give it another shot because I really have no where else to go. I have a bit of a special case though, some reasons why I used porn so heavily when I was younger. But now I'm a complete slave to it. I have lost a woman I loved with all my heart her son which was like my son. I've lost friends because all I want to do after a certain point is isolate myself, smoke pot and watch porn. I really thought I was at my lowest when I lost my gf but I've surprised myself quite a bit the last couple of months. It has gotten significantly worst and I can't stop hating myself. I believe I may need some psychiatric help but I will explain my story further on the proper section. Just wanted to introduce myself and maybe vent a little. Hope everyone reading this feeling good tonight.
Welcome friend. This is a good place. PMO will still a lot from you but I believe you can rebound and get it all back and more. A place to start is the new to noFap forum, there a resource guide close to the top. Also, there a video called your brain on porn. This will help explain what's going on inside your mind and what you will be facing. Next start posting, get your troubles out of your mind, understand you triggers, and develop a plan to coop with them with good habits.
Hi. Welcome to forum! Make sure you create a personal journal thread in Reboot Logs section and blog there on a regular basis. As well as just generally be active participant in various forum discussions. I recommend this to everybody new here because it's the major thing that helped me when I was first starting. Just lurking on forums, reading and learning is great. But it usually is so much more powerful to engage. It helps to keep us motivated and accountable when we are active part of community. And keeps this in front of our minds so we don't forget about importance of it and slip away in our old habits. Sharing is also therapeutic. This is a major reason why AA meetings work so good. But that was developed before internet era. These days we can get most of the same benefits online through communities like this. So don't underestimate the power of active participation. I would also like to suggest you to look into mindfulness meditation. It has helped me personally tremendously to learn how to deal with urges and triggers. It takes a while to get good at it and notice results, so you need to be consistent with it, but once you do it's very powerful. It has been used by sages for thousands of years to deal with various issues of the mind. And in recent decades the science is also catching up to what ancient sages have know for centuries. Meditation these days are widely used as very effective tool by psychologists for treating addiction and by neurologists for supporting recovery of the brain after physical injury. Plus it is generally a great exercise for the brain the same way as jogging is great exercise for the body. You gotta make sure it is proper mindfulness meditation though. "Mindfulness" meditation where we just focus on breath is more like a concentration meditation instead. It works too but differently and not as powerfully in my experience. Real mindfulness meditation however trains you to accept your urges by understanding the nature of them by observing them, not just suppress them by concentrating on something else instead. It makes you comfortable with them. And once you accept and become comfortable with them there is no need to get rid of them, so there is no need to PMO. Only reason why we PMO is because that urge, that itch in our crotch is uncomfortable, we wanna get rid of it. And then after PMO we have our release. Or we simply want pleasure. And inability to have that pleasure makes us uncomfortable. But if we accept that we can not have pleasure then resistance is gone and there is no reason to PMO. Acceptance and mindfulness is the key. Check out this Ted talk on acceptance and mindfulness practice, it gives a good idea of what's it's about when it comes to philosophy. The mindfulness practice as described by psychologist in a the video can be used by itself but ideally should be used as supplementation to your daily sitting meditation. Sitting meditation I personally practice and recommend to people is as explained by meditation expert in this YouTube playlist. If you don't like the monk or want other method there is this awesome smartphone app called Headspace for guided meditations. Wish you lot's of strength and success in your reboot journey!
