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Discussion in 'New to NoFap' started by machu, Jan 21, 2019.

  1. machu

    machu Fapstronaut

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    I am 36 year old husband and father. I have been addicted to porn since my early teens. Ever since I became addicted, I became very secretive finding different ways to be alone and see or visualize porn to masturbate. That is the only force driving me. Some times I go on for days masturbating at least 2-3 times a day. After which the guilt phase takes over.
    The habit was OK till the day I got married. I thought things would change once I have a partner. But, it got worse afterwards. Porn and masturbation always took the front seat. The sexual attraction towards my wife slowly died down as I found new porn sites and new experiments in the movies which I never even dared to discuss with my wife. Things are continuing the same even after I became a dad. When my little son watches TV. I sneak out and watch porn in my office room. I feel miserable. I carry the guilt of not being a good father or husband.
    Because of porn, I am not able to love my wife anymore. Everything has become a formality. She questions me. But I am not able to come out. I take resolution after resolution each Birthdays and new year. But, after abstaining for a few days, I relapse. Hope I will get some help from NoFap and come back to a real life soon.
    Thanks for reading.
     
  2. Press on

    Press on Fapstronaut

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    Thanks for sharing open and honestly. I have felt much the same guilt. It is a terrible addiction, but it is only an addiction and can be beat. Fear not and keep hope alive. At one point I had cut porn off for months and my life was returning to normal. However, one day in a fit of anger I went back and I have been having alot of trouble since then. That's what brought me to this site. I do know that we can be restored no matter what. This is the right place to be because everyone in this community can support eachother. Please feel free to message me anytime and I will offer any support that I can. God bless.
     
  3. auxburgerkanak

    auxburgerkanak New Fapstronaut

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    Hello from Germany. Im here new too i just started last week with nofap and i can say the first 5 days were horrible. yesterday and today was hard too but not that hard. Maybe you have to close all the porn sites. So you lose if you open one porn site or you look at one naked girl or something else. because if you open just a 15 second porn video --> you will masturbate. thats the cause of looking for porn since years and years. We have to give our brains just the time to adapt. Because the human brain can adapt to everything. If you were in a war and have nothing to eat. Would you even think to masturbate? I hope we can get that shit done together!!!
     
  4. scott3085

    scott3085 Fapstronaut

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    ive always been awkward growing up and I think it was the porn that did it to me cause I looked at it when ever I could recently I found this site I thought it wasn't serious but later I gave it another chance and im on soon to be fourth day
     
  5. Ciru156

    Ciru156 New Fapstronaut

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    Hi, i'm 20 years old, and can't stop masturbate. It's the resson of that my last realtionship failed, because I cant function in the bed. I usually doing it before my sleep. some advices?
     
  6. Machu, it took courage to come here and be honest with those who have also suffered from P addiction. I have done much of what you wrote. The sneaking to watch porn, and the loss of interest in your wife. Think of this: would you want this for your son? Do you want it for yourself? Be honest. Try very hard to defeat this evil addiction. Take it one day at a time; if you fail, you will get up and start again. You can rid yourself of the guilt you feel. We are all in the same situation more or less. I can tell you that you will find support here. All you have to do is ask. Things will change if you stop, but you have to want to do so. Be strong. It is tough, my friend. I wish you great success.
     
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  7. scott3085

    scott3085 Fapstronaut

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    hello and welcome to NoFap I just discovered this nofap stuff and I looked my self iin the mirror and I felt disgusted and ashamed now that I know the truth about porn this is my third major streak so this time im not giving up we are all champions here
     
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  8. Retentionman

    Retentionman Fapstronaut

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    You will change man, welcome
     
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  9. scott3085

    scott3085 Fapstronaut

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    ive droped four pounds since starting NoFap
     
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  10. machu

    machu Fapstronaut

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    Happy to hear that. May be the effects of positivity in your life. Cheers!!
     

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