I am 36 year old husband and father. I have been addicted to porn since my early teens. Ever since I became addicted, I became very secretive finding different ways to be alone and see or visualize porn to masturbate. That is the only force driving me. Some times I go on for days masturbating at least 2-3 times a day. After which the guilt phase takes over. The habit was OK till the day I got married. I thought things would change once I have a partner. But, it got worse afterwards. Porn and masturbation always took the front seat. The sexual attraction towards my wife slowly died down as I found new porn sites and new experiments in the movies which I never even dared to discuss with my wife. Things are continuing the same even after I became a dad. When my little son watches TV. I sneak out and watch porn in my office room. I feel miserable. I carry the guilt of not being a good father or husband. Because of porn, I am not able to love my wife anymore. Everything has become a formality. She questions me. But I am not able to come out. I take resolution after resolution each Birthdays and new year. But, after abstaining for a few days, I relapse. Hope I will get some help from NoFap and come back to a real life soon. Thanks for reading.