Hello there

Hi I'm Randall. An 18 year old senior in high school trying to overcome his struggle with porn addiction.
It all started last year once I started finding content that "made me relieved." The first few times I did it I got this satisfied high and wanted more of it. During this time I had hit rock bottom with school and work dragged me down, so anything that helped relieved stress I embraced. I thought smoking marijuana would help but it didn't. I tried working out and i was happy for once, but then i got an infection that left me ill for about a month or so. I was introduced to porn at an early age (I say 11 or 12) once my older brother forgot to close his browsers on the laptop lol. As a developing preteen i was interested in it but never did fully look into it until my later years. I was missing school cause of getting an eye and ear infection then later on the flu. During that time I was bored of playing games and remembered that porn existed. I controlled it at first but then after I got better I decided to drop it. Every now and then when i came home from work or school feeling stressed out I would simply pleasure myself.
Then it became a real problem. So much so that I can't control the urges anymore. I keep reminding myself that i could be using that time for something else and I'm wasting valuable time. I keep saying that it's fake happiness. I can only go on for 7-8 days before relapsing and it's a battle. Just today (7th day again) I woke up at 4am and couldn't sleep and thought about porn throughout the whole day and despite my conscious saying no... i gave in again. This time for good. Hopefully i can finally go on without the urges pulling me back. I plan on focusing about graduating, saving up money, and working out to get more gains instead of masturbating. My main goal is 6-7 months of NoFap and we'll see how it goes from here on out. Sorry for this being to long to read lol.

 

Thanks for the tips man. I really appreciate it

 

Thanks for the warm welcome