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Hey guys thanks for reading this.
So I've been completely destroyed by PMO over the years but one thing about me is that I don't give up. After years of relapses I wanted to quit trying but I never lost hope. So, here I am completely squashed by PMO, relapsing again and again but still trying that one day I might succeed in reaching 6 Months free from PMO and sex. I'm on day 4 now but everyday is so slow and mentally draining as I think that I'm only on day 4 and I have to reach day 180. What if I relapse like always ?, What if I never heal ?. These thoughts keep bugging me and I really really want to be on day 180 as I know that abstaining from PMO for 6 months will heal me but not if I keep repeating the relapse cycle. I just want my life to start again, to feel alive again, to be healed completely but when I see how many days still are left and the ever present fear of relapsing I feel restless, numb, hopeless and depressed. What to do guys ?
So I've been completely destroyed by PMO over the years but one thing about me is that I don't give up. After years of relapses I wanted to quit trying but I never lost hope. So, here I am completely squashed by PMO, relapsing again and again but still trying that one day I might succeed in reaching 6 Months free from PMO and sex. I'm on day 4 now but everyday is so slow and mentally draining as I think that I'm only on day 4 and I have to reach day 180. What if I relapse like always ?, What if I never heal ?. These thoughts keep bugging me and I really really want to be on day 180 as I know that abstaining from PMO for 6 months will heal me but not if I keep repeating the relapse cycle. I just want my life to start again, to feel alive again, to be healed completely but when I see how many days still are left and the ever present fear of relapsing I feel restless, numb, hopeless and depressed. What to do guys ?