Help with this depression

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Black_Knight 1998

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Today is my 36 day and i only masturbated once because i was trying to do external prostate massage as i have a prostatic engorgement for about 3 weeks and i can't urinate normally, so i decided to do this massage under warm water ,but during this massage i felt that i really need to release this tension ,so i masturbated once. But currently I'm completely depressed more than before and i have a strong desire to hurt myself but i can't which is killing me.
 
why would you be so depressed that you want to hurt yourself? yes, you jerked but it is not the end of your life...come on. I feel we are not happy while fapping and we are happy without fapping. I think we make our journey really difficult ourselves by setting high standards or giving us this guilt trip.

relax...you can always get back on the wagon and start again.
 
karshup said:
why would you be so depressed that you want to hurt yourself? yes, you jerked but it is not the end of your life...come on. I feel we are not happy while fapping and we are happy without fapping. I think we make our journey really difficult ourselves by setting high standards or giving us this guilt trip.

relax...you can always get back on the wagon and start again.
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İ wasn't happy at all but i won't say i didn't feel pleasure at the time of ejaculation may be for one minute or less. But right after that my depression increased. And I'm still trying to control myself and my depression.
Because my mind is telling me that i relapsed and i have to complete this relapse. But have belief which is the relapse is not available option for any reason.
 
Black_Knight 1998 said:
İ wasn't happy at all but i won't say i didn't feel pleasure at the time of ejaculation may be for one minute or less. But right after that my depression increased. And I'm still trying to control myself and my depression.
Because my mind is telling me that i relapsed and i have to complete this relapse. But have belief which is the relapse is not available option for any reason.
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I can understand that you feel sad that you ejaculated but I feel you are being very hard on yourself. Instead of counting day...enjoy the process and if you fap and then get back to routine of no fapping again.
 
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