Welcome to the forums Freespirit17! Just dropping by to share some links to our LGBTQ+ groups if you are interested in connecting with fellow LGBTQ+ folks: https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?groups/lgbtq-fapstronaut-alliance.76/ https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?groups/genderqueer/forums Wish you the best on your recovery! Fetishes can be tough to deal with but with patience and progress in your recovery it's definitely possible. I've been able to get rid of several myself. Just be patient and don't give up no matter how many times you might slip up.