Hi, i'm on 13-th day, OMG... it's hard!

Hi, my name is Rustam. I live in Uzbekistan. I heard about Nofap last fall. And since November I have not stopped trying. My record is 13 days. But rarely I can stand for even 4 days.
Now it's my 13-th day

I am 27 years old. i am an actor in theatre. My problems are depression, mindfog and social anxiety.

I always was a looser with girls because of shyness. Although girls like me and I had some short-lasting strange relationships.

With Nofap I feel emotional stability. The mood does not fall so bad, so low.

I do meditation, and this time I managed to hold out for 12 days, because I also used the Sedona method, working with the emotion of lust. However, it is becoming more difficult for me to resist to the new waves of excitement. The last 2 days were terrible.

Last week I began to text with girls, because I want to experience something similar to sex. I began to be attracted by any pictures of girls. I am ready to masturbate on a photo of a beautiful girl, even if there is no erotic. ok, even if she is not so beautiful)

I really love porn. All of my friends think it’s normal and no one tries nofap. It’s difficult to stay on track because of it.

At this moment I am very drawn to watch porn. OMG, it is very difficult. I did so much! 13 days and I know that if I’ll do that – it will end very quickly and the next week possibly I will jerk off every single day. Help me, guys!!!