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HOCD - is there anybody cured? PLEASE share you stories and experiences

Discussion in 'Porn Addiction' started by micpol, Aug 2, 2017.

  1. micpol

    micpol Fapstronaut

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    Hi guys.

    This is my second post in NoFap, I didnt succeed with my first (not geting any reply, but that was really long one, so I understand). Maby now it will be better :)

    I struggle really hard with HOCD probably, but I don't know for sure. Not telling my story fully, which is a long one, I just would like to ask - is there anybody here who did actually beat this shit out of his mind?

    Beat THIS I mean this kind of story - all my life since I remember I was 100% straight, can't even count all my crushes with girls, few times in love deeply, also in really lovefull and lustfull relationship in the past. One moment (for me - when I was 23) - some idea of "maby I'm gay" crossing your mind and - that's it. I'm done. After four years I cannot control it anymore, sometimes it is really killing me, I cannot think about anything else. It is 24h obssesion, Im even scared to go to sleep because Im afraid of what dreams I will have.

    Of course in the past I was using porn, which could be the one to blame. Starting from watching some nude pics of women or striptease when I was 14, ending with some severe stuff of gangbangs and violence in porn few years later.

    I would really aprreciate if you share your story, if you did win against this so called HOCD. If you struggle, but have some good advices I would be greatfull too. And if you would like just to share experiences also it could help I guess. Not feeling alone. Not feeling suicidal and hopeless.

    Thanks.

    P.S. Sorry my bad English. I am not native.
     
  2. JakeWoods

    JakeWoods Fapstronaut

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    I personally do not have HOCD but I do have some fetishes that I picked up along the way that I know only watching porn could have given me.

    To answer your question. Yes you can reverse HOCD. Right now the only reason your brain is thinking of men is because you've watched everything else soo much that you're now bored of the gangbangs, the violence and whatever else you watched. So now your brain wants something new. So when you look at men, it's new to your brain. It's all to do with dopamine and dopamine receptors, the Coolidge effect and all of that, but I'm not going to go into detail over that. You can read plenty of stories on here or even on YourBrainOnPorn.com

    I've read stories of men quitting porn and then their thoughts about men go away once their brains return to normal.

    So Yes HOCD is reversible.

    And your English is very good :)
     
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  3. micpol

    micpol Fapstronaut

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    Thanks man, I really appreciate your reply :)

    I hope you are right. Or else, I hope I am right and I didn't magicaly "turn gay" one day. Funny thing, when I was like under 20 I could not even tell if a guy is handsom or not. I always had to ask some lady if he is so popular among girls because he is so handsome, funny or what on earth ;)

    I guess I have to stay strong and do really nofap for like a year maby. My best for now is perhaps around 40-50 days (I didnt count really).

    I hope you will be good with stuff that bothers you! Peace
     
  4. Evolver1

    Evolver1 Fapstronaut

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    Hey guys, I'm starting a support group on this app where we can discuss ssa and hocd and hopefully unravel it and by understanding it better we can let this part of us go.

    A few of us meet on Zoom video meetings every other Monday night at 8pm EST.

    We will have a meeting tonight 8/28/17 and every other Monday from then on.

    If interested in joining us you can join this new recovery app on the link below and join the SSA group in there for details on our bi-weekly video meetings

    https://mighty-men.mn.co/share/r8SOjDj3RhfX_U3u
     
  5. AtomicTango

    AtomicTango Fapstronaut

    I never had HOCD but I have heard many stories like this before and always ask the same question; "Did you have any attraction to men before you started watching porn". In your case this is an easy one to answer as you answered it in your first post, the answer being no. To me, this means that the HOCD is just a side effect of excessive porn consumption, not a sign you are actually gay.
     
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  6. BoBo129

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    @micpol My brother I have beaten my HOCD. My HOCD was very bad. I let a guy blow me after viewing a lot of porn that day. I use to think I turned gay too. I kept coming on here asking questions and it did not help at all. Porn makes you do things you never thought of doing. The only way I defeated my OCD was accept the thoughts and forgive myself for what I put myself into. I was so angry at what I did. I couldn't stand hearing the word gay. I was gay bashing everyone from left to right and I was wrong for that. What I'm saying is you have to accept the unknown. Gay people are very awesome. Just because they love the same sex doesn't mean their different from us. We are all God's children. Stop being afraid and accept what you watched and did. It will all go away. Only you know who you are. If you were 100% straight before all this then you will always be straight. Rule 1 is if you say you're straight then you're straight. I got so tired of coming on here man because I kept getting the samw answers and it makes it worse. Trust me man you can do this. Let go of porn bro.
     
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  7. I've had worse that HOCD, if POCD was a thing then that's what I had. Like people have said when you spend years viewing all manner of explicit content eventually the same stuff doesn't have the same effect so you go out of your way to look for other genres 'ooh that's different' 'wow that's crazy' 'OMG what am I actually watching' turns into 'seen it' 'bored' ' nope not interested now' 'what's next' it's pretty simple for me now after being abstinent for over 2.5 years to understand that all I really wanted was to feel connected with another woman, to feel affection and love. I think what would my perfect partner look like and who could I spend the rest of my life with and it's a woman, actually a slightly older woman. I have zero interest in the things I used to look at now because i've put in the effort to change. If I can do it, you can do it. Porn will only rot your mind more.
     
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