Hey, I relapsed today after a 5 day streak, you see i suffer from ocd, pure O to be more specific and one of the subjects of ocd is hocd. I started watching porn at age 9, vanilla porn, seing boobs and stuff at age 13 i escalated into, straight explicit porn, everything was so arousing and all, i used to see pictures of naked women too and stuff. There was this time where i was fantasizing about a woman and the thought of a boy came to my head i didnt care and that did not aroused me. After a while I escalated into incest porn and zoofilia and a little bit of lesbian, that was a red flag and I stopped with porn videos but i started looking and reading erotica, including gay erotica that was when the hocd hit, i then as a way of checking myself went to gay porn and was totally disgusted by it. Until the day everything changed, i had a cousin to sleep over my home and when i woke up the other day i had a thought telling me i was raped, i then proceeded to check porn and to my surprise i was aroused by it and that made me freak out and i still check and i still get so aroused and stuff, i still watch other porn and it arouses me but not as much as pictures of gay men and all, in real life though girls still arouse me but im going mad what the hell can somebody help?