I don’t know if this is either HOCD, denial, or a reboot? Help please

Hey mate,

I think there is a possabillity that you might have (Porn Induced) HOCD.

I have Porn Induced HOCD and I'm also very anxious of becoming gay or bi, but I never have had any interesst in a man (only just friends). It has caused by watching porn for 9 years, so I could conclude that I had a porn addiction. Watched Sissy/ Forced BI and strapon videos... this is not Good for your brain.

Please stay away from porn. Do the PMO-challenge for at least 3 months. Then you will see what your real sexuality is. I think it is straight, because you have never found a man interesting in Real life.

Stay strong mate. When you need help, you can me send me a private message.

 

Hey @burnsyphotos2000 ,

Sometimes I feel as if I'm in the minority on NoFap when it comes to this issue. Sometimes, I get replies that agree with me.

First. I offer ESH only, no opinions. (ESH = Experience, Strength and Hope).

My experience is that I went through some strange (100% legal) "p" watching before I found NoFap. Some of it was not inline with my previous sexuality. When I finished a 120 day hard reboot, those desires disappeared.

My experience is that my sexuality is my sexuality. No matter what fetish the dark dank underworld of Internet Porn lead me to, my underlying sexuality did not change. Once I removed the porn, my sexuality recovered.

My strength and hope are that HOCD, SSA and SSAD are not real. I know I might get blasted for this post, but I'm tough I can take it. Online porn being blasted into the brain via my eyes and headphones creating odd fetishes is real. HOCD, SSA, SSAD are made up BS terms that used mostly by those the will not believe sexuality is inherent and not a choice.

If you are straight, you are straight. My experience is online "p" did not change my basic sexuality. If it could have I'd be straight and I'm not. I've been gay my whole life, yet found myself going through phases where only straight "p" would "do it for me". There is no SOCD (Straight Obsessive Compulsive Disorder), OSA (Opposite Sex Attraction) nor OSAD (Opposite Sex Attraction Disorder). If there would I wouldn't still be gay.

Online porn cannot turn a man from straight to gay nor the other way around. That is not an opinion, that is my ESH. Also, be aware many of the terms that get thrown out about HOCD, SSA, SSAD and a few more are merely an attempt to avoid admitting gay people exist. According to the people that use those terms, everyone is born straight, they just have a "disorder".

You don't have a disorder, you are a straight man.

There is so much support on this forum, the profiles and the various groups. It works if you work it. I don't offer advise. I offer only my ESH (experience, strength and hope).

Work it? Oh yeah. There's work to be done, that's what's worked for me. Two things I've found necessary.

1. I had to Learn the NoFap Program.

2. Getting involved with the community on here was vital to help my recovery.

Learn the NoFap Program
The resources listed on the "New Users: List of Rebooting Resources" helped me find my way around the reasons behind the program and the terms used.

They are:

• Download the free Getting Started guide.
• Set up a PMO-Counter Badge. More info here!
• Basic introduction to the science of porn addiction!
• Basic information about rebooting and how our challenges can help you recover from PMO. This is the most important page to read. If you only can read one page, read this one.
• About NoFap.
• Watch this video - it is an epic intro resource if you want to get particular details about porn addiction and how it changes how your brain works.
• This is a good light-weight video about porn addiction.
• Read through the journal sections and see what other rebooters have experienced. It is good to know what to expect, otherwise the "chaser effect", "the surge", or the "flatline" might throw you off.
• If you come across vocabulary that you can't understand, check out our rebooting glossary of terms.
• GET ACCOUNTABLE FOR YOUR HABITS! Sign up for a peer accountability partner. Otherwise if you want more professional-hosted solutions, check out NoFap Premium or Reboot Camp. If you can afford to invest in yourself, these are great options.

You can find this same list on the top of the forum you posted this message on at - the "New to NoFap" forum.

Get Involved with the Community
The community has been my lifeline. I've found journals I love, people who are very supportive and a place where I could get to work helping in a small way others.

I'm nobody important around here. Just a normal user with no magic powers.

But, I can:

• Read Journals, and comment when I have ESH
• Find people I admire and stay in touch via their profiles
• Pick a forum and make sure evvery post gets and answer. I can't answer them all, but that's good - different opinions make for a better group.
• Post in my journal (I could be better at it - but I do milestone posts at least) To make a journal go to the section listed by age and start one. Keep all your journal posts in one thread. But, for random thoughts, you can create a new thread.

Looking forward to seeing you around on the forums,

- L

PS - Think of pmo like a wolf. Stay near the center of the group with the winners and the wolf has a more difficult time finding you. But, stray near the edges of the community and the wolf can pick you off.

 

For me NoFap is half program and half fellowship. Click on these people and post a "hello" on their profiles:

@2525
@weddingnails
@PatrickR
@Beamer
@Arohamystic
@MLMVSS
@Rising Sun !!
@Ready to be healthy
@icandoit
@Brahmacharin
@Struggle Bug
@tet2vd
@Satchi
@BigDawg913
@zakes
@SaapKaBaap
@LilD
@kropo82
@DavidGibson
@reystronaut

 

One of the ways I got involved with the fellowship was by reading some really great journals.

I've included journals from all age groups, spiritual members, religious members, secular members, male and female. You should find journals that help. If not, look around, there are hundreds of others from which to choose. When I say "it works if you work it", reading journals is part of that work.

Once you open a journal, click "Watch Thread" in the upper right of the page to get alerts when new posts are made. Here are just a few:

@DavidGibson Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/143325/
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@Euklid Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/146663/
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@LilD Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/147764/
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@BreatheDeeply Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/139097/
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@LiquidShoes Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/134044/
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@Reverent Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/143845/
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@zakes Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/149243/
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@Former_CD Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/87827/
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@PatrickR Journals at: https://www.nofap.com/forum/index.php?threads/139570/
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There are many more, and you can discover them on your own. But, these are great places to start.

This is a work in progress. So, if a journal has changed or is no longer active, look around there are some amazing journals on here.

- L

 

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