I don't know why but i just want to write this

I can relate. I've had this addiction a long while. I knew it's been bad for me from early on, but I didn't try to stop. Then I later did, but only half-heartedly. I didn't realize what I would really have to put in and give up to find freedom. Later still I was in a relationship for 3 years, that was great at the start, but pmo caused issues that I was blind to. Eventually, after a very trying time trying to pull it back together, our relationship broke. Even when I had something, someone so important on the line, I only tried half heartedly. I was trying to quit because some groups say that it's bad, then I tried quitting for my partner, but then after losing her, I eventually came to truly feel like I just want to be free from P for myself. It took a regretful amount of failures, and times of questioning what I wanted to get here, but right now that is how I genuinely feel.

also, don't worry about your English, I understand you fine.

Thanks for posting this.

 

Great post! I feel that those “magical benefits “ will not come from just retention and transmutation. We have to revolutionize our whole psychology over a long period of time for that to happen.
You’re English is good.