Its been months since i last entered this website. Things havent been so bad for me, i started giving guitar lessons, also i started kinda-dating (its complicated, but thats not what i wanna talk about right now) this girl from music school. But i feel like something is keeping me from my true potential: i still watch porn. I never completely quited nofap, but i first gave up normal mode for easy mode (wich is yes masturbation but not porn). This didnt go so well: i started relapsing way too often, and its been a while since i last got to the 3 weeks milestone. Looking at my log, i realized that i cant even go a full week without masturbation or porn anymore. Relapses dont feel so bad anymore, but they happen all the time, and i constantly feel bad about myself, at least a little bit. I miss feeling like a god, like i can do anything, like i could conquer the world. Today i relapsed 5 times allready and that was the drop that filled the bucket: im back on NoFap, and back on this forum.