I need help urgent.

I think that you should realize that it is not natural to stick anything up there. Any "massage" should be done by your poop. There is not shortcut though, I think you just have to keep fighting the urge until you conquer it.

Try to find a lot of hobbies/ stuff to do if possible. Walk, read a book, exercise, meditate, do yoga, learn a new skill, do stretches etc I am sure you have heard of these. Anything to make time pass easier. Also sometimes doing this stuff can be irritating, if so do not do them or leave something out. Listen to your body, but still push yourself out of your comfort zone every now and then. Even after all of this, you will be greeted with urges, then there is only one question; are you going to relapse today?

If your poops are soft you should eat more fiber and sleep less to get your bowel working. I sometimes get and itch on my ass if my poops are soft. What I hope you get from this is that ass is only for taking a sh*t, anything else is from p*rn/ lust. God bless you man and keep going. It is good thing that you did not PMO.

unrelated but I thought I would share; I had huge urges last night and I was so irritated because I could not sleep. Thinking that I will not relapse today helped. Just today helps me.

Also what occurred; you should eliminate everything that can link to a nsfw site. You do not want to support anyone that is producing this crap that made us addicted and is making everyone else too. I have cut so many things from my life but I know it is for the better. Also do not bash yourself for slipping up, those happen. Get your head up and continue fighting!

 

Well I think from what I have read that you have definitely lapsed, you have viewed porn whether it's traditional porn or not doesn't matter and you have to go back to day 0, for being totally honest with yourself is key in this. In terms of setbacks, you will definitely have took a step back mentally here, but it's not all disappeared, it doesn't flood away after a lapse or two, you body will be further on than when you started this, but it's about keeping it going. All you can do is learn from this, maybe be more strict with your internet use, maybe don't use it unless it's absolutely necessary or put caps on time use, adult content blockers or an accountability app for someone you trust to see what you're viewing and call you out for it.

Most importantly do not get down from this, it's a setback, but you are here and proving that you want this, so get going and start again. Good luck!

 

It's always tough to hear when you have a long streak built up but I seriously think that measuring your day-count only works if you're totally and completely honest with yourself. From your described experiences you engaged in peeking at porn or other arousing material and you attempted self-pleasure as a result of that peeking. That for me at least sounds like a relapse. Maybe I'm a fanatic and everyone will have different opinions on it but when I was on my long streak of 70+ days, my eventual journey to total binge and relapse was started with some sexual chatting that I wrote off as a minor thing that didn't require a reset. A week later I relapsed and I've been relapsing consistently since. If I'd been honest with myself then, reset and put a break on that behaviour, I might well still be clean. Just my opinion but worth considering!