RickNeedsHelp
Fapstronaut
Hi everyone. I'm 20 years old and I have had started watching porn at a young age but my addiction for porn soon drifted towards a dark side, HUMILIATION AND DEGRADATION. I soon developed a fetish for feet though I can accept myself that way but the problem is that with foot fetish videos, there are certain people who think that foot fetishers don't have any self esteem or respect. I still watched a few degrading videos when I somehow landed to a sissyfication video.
It took me a while to know what it meant but I developed an unwanted sissy fetish which gradually took me to sissy Hypno. I'll be honest, I enjoyed it for a few YEARS but once I entered college it started annoying me. In India, ragging is still common and that happened with me. It wasn't mild ragging, I was forced to suck cock and get fucked by me seniors. That's when I realized that I don't want to be like this. That incident made me feel annoyed and disgusted of myself, I wanted to end my life. After a few such incidents where my seniors ragged me, I became more and more quite. I'm in my 3rd year of college and I have a huge crush on her but sissy fetish and Hypno are turning out to be bigger distraction for me. I never felt drawn towards a man but due to this sissy shit, I still have worsening thoughts which give rise to suicidal thoughts. I can't even look at my reflection in the mirror. I'm always quiet. I never talk to anyone, not even my roommate.
The only hope lies with you guys. I'll try to be as optimistic as possible but I need quick help because I've started feeling depressed. Please help, it's urgent.
It took me a while to know what it meant but I developed an unwanted sissy fetish which gradually took me to sissy Hypno. I'll be honest, I enjoyed it for a few YEARS but once I entered college it started annoying me. In India, ragging is still common and that happened with me. It wasn't mild ragging, I was forced to suck cock and get fucked by me seniors. That's when I realized that I don't want to be like this. That incident made me feel annoyed and disgusted of myself, I wanted to end my life. After a few such incidents where my seniors ragged me, I became more and more quite. I'm in my 3rd year of college and I have a huge crush on her but sissy fetish and Hypno are turning out to be bigger distraction for me. I never felt drawn towards a man but due to this sissy shit, I still have worsening thoughts which give rise to suicidal thoughts. I can't even look at my reflection in the mirror. I'm always quiet. I never talk to anyone, not even my roommate.
The only hope lies with you guys. I'll try to be as optimistic as possible but I need quick help because I've started feeling depressed. Please help, it's urgent.