A few months ago, I made a mistake by entering a dark web world. The reason I did that because I was curious about what actually in there. I downloaded Tor and exploring the whole thing. Until I stop at one site. It's kinda embarrassing to say this, but I'm just gonna do it. The site that I stopped was a porn site. More specific, it's a child porn site. Yes, I watched kiddie porn. At first, I felt nausea at my stomach because I never watch that kinda thing before. I shut down the computer and try to forget everything. My curiosity continued to emerge. I couldn't help myself. I entered the dark web again and hooked with those kiddie porn for a few weeks. I felt numb, but my brain won't to stop me to not entering the thing. I fap to that disgusting thing. Now, my anxiety and depression are draining my self. I don't know what to do anymore. The more I try to escape from those things, the more the thing spinning in my head. Can I still be forgiven? I never hurt any child, and never have a thought to do that. I only watch the video, and I feel embarrassing, disgusting, evil and anxiety all over my body. Please, help me.