I'm bound to hell forever.......

Brother we need to talk. God loves you and you are wayyyy of base regarding your sin and his forgiveness. Ill get back to you asap, im at work. Ive been going through what you are saying for 30 years.

 

I can quote a bible verse for you but it will just be out of context as most are that you will see around here. (my opinion) Why do you feel bad? Is it because you have promised the holy God of the universe that you will stop sinning in your flesh and you feel you have lied to him or let him down over and over? Why dosent everyone on nofap feel the same as you? You Brother have been given a gift by god. a gift you did not deserve like me. a gift of faith in Jesus Christ. God has not taken this gift from you and you have not destroyed it by sin. if you had you would no longer care. This is the only unforgivable sin.

 

Dont listen to others who brag about how long they think they have been free from sin. and quote out of context versus about works. Dont promise god anything just relax in the knowledge that jesus was tempted by lust just like you and me. He knows what its like. its a process. You can do many things to overcome lust but it wont happen in a day. start by ridding yourself of any temptation. No sacrafice is to great. get a flip phone if you need it. The only sin you suffer from is sin thst is COMMON to man, we are all like you. You are not alone.

 

Romans 7:15-20 New International Version (NIV)
15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. 16 And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. 17 As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. 18 For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature.a]">[a] For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. 19 For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. 20 Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.

 

Many of us were trapped in PMO far longer. We have all felt the same thing as what you describe. And still -- wonder of wonders! -- God loves us and welcomes us back every time we return to him.

Trust takes time. When you trust God completely, and give your life completely over to his care and control (and don't pick it back up to take charge of again), things will begin to change for you. But this trust can take a long time to develop, especially if the bonds of trust in your life were broken or damages early on. many addicts have this story in common. Hard childhoods lead to unhealthy coping mechanisms lead to addiction. None of it is a surprise to God. None of it causes him to desire you to come to him any less.

Some practical things: Cut off your source of P completely, whatever it takes. Get an AP or three and start checking in with them every day to stay accountable. Get encouragement from your fellow disciples.

I am praying for you. God's word to you is this: "All is forgiven. Please come home."

 

Just wanted to throw a couple of thoughts your way as someone who has battled with sin for a long time and still stumbles many times.

The first was from an article I read, in which the author had a turning point. When crying before God in prayer with a sin he still struggled with after many years, he heard a simple response from the Lord. "You are a lot harder on yourself than I would ever be on you!"

The second is the Scripture quote this revelation is based on, one that has been uplifting for many in their struggles (Lk 7:36-50). To paraphrase, he who has been forgiven little, loves little; he who has been forgiven much, loves much.

Everyone has something they struggle with more than anything else (whether this issue is that issue for you is between you and God). Regardless of what it is, it is that issue which teaches you all about mercy and love, which is unfathomable and beyond measure. Even Paul had his thorn. You aren't dismissive of it, you battle with it, and the more you fail, the more He loves you. Grace is an experience not understood without struggle.

 

It's a love we can not understand. Do not hate yourself that's what the devil wants, you wont let him win. The fact that you are here shows that you want to stop but know that you can't do it on your own, with the help of the Holy Spirit you will overcome it. There are times i am triggered and say "Holy Spirit Help me" repeatedly and He does, because I began to focus more on him than the trigger. Understand that you are not alone, ever, God is in you to help you and guide you. Also try to focus more on your love for God than your hatred for PMO, because love is stronger. The Love God has for us can't be understood by the mere human mind. Our goal in this life is to experience and share this love focus on this love focus on the word of God when you are triggered, take your mind to the word of God. I was triggered before I came online and then I was guided by the Holy Spirit to log in. The Holy Spirit will always be there for us. I pray to God that you always remember to turn to him when he needs you to. God bless you and empower you brother, I'm rooting for you.

Phillipians 4:8
For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them].

 

Hi!

I am addicted for more than 20 years now. I fight and I was beaten by the sin so often.

BUT: I felt the love of God more often than I sinned! God is so often so clear that He wants me to fight. So I fight and never give up. The salvation of God is much stronger than every sin of the world, even in sum. Jesus defeated all the power of the sin - so our fight makes sense, a lot of it! Because we know, that every fight for God is not in vain, it is for Him.

But you are right, it is also biological proven, porn addiction is very similar to drug addiction. You can get out of drug addiction if you fight hard and you can get out of porn addiction if you fight hard. Look: I am addicted for more than 20 years now. But I noticed a very slight, but very good progress in the way out of it. Just fight. God is with you and will not leave you.

 

I was active in this addiction for over 25 years. It can take time. Never give up! Breakthrough will occur if you keep coming back to Christ. You *can* be free of this junk, once and for all.

 

That is such BS. I was an addict for 20 years. And the whole time I was doing it Satan reinforced all the lies you're feeling right now. Listen, he will do anything and everything to keep you. The fact that you're still bothered by what you're doing and wanting to repent means you're not dead. Proverbs 24:14 says "Know also that wisdom is like honey for you: If you find it there is a future hope for you and your hope will not be cut off."
Don't ignore the voice that's calling you. If you keep ignoring it someday you won't even know it but it could happen that you gave yourself up to sin. But God is definitely striving after you now. The older you get the harder it will be, the more alone you will feel the more you will buy into the enemies lies. Let that fear and knowledge empower you now. If you feel hardened to your sin, pray for repentance. Pray that God give you that heart. Then pray for what you need next.
We are caught in a wheel of behavior. Examine how porn has taught you to think, pray for wisdom in what God wants you to think, and separate the truth that has been mixed in with the lie. You have fear and repentance right now, that's good. Cling to that. Give us your real first name. I want to pray for you. And don't believe God is a legalist. He's too big for that. Religion puts God in a box every time. Don't you put God in a box for how he's working in your life.
You're right to be afraid if you're being moved to overcome this. We can't have idolatry in our life. Pornography is more than habitual sin. It's replacing a spiritual need with God for PMO. Jonah 2:8 They that observe lying vanities forsake their own mercy.
THIS IS IMPORTANT Idolatry isn't habitual sin. Porn isn't to be mistaken with simply daily lusts that men inadvertently feel towards attractive women. It's a perversion that controls every other area of your heart with lies about love and God. How can you understand Christian love when you've corrupted the fundamentals in your heart? My point is idolatry calls for nothing less than complete and total repentance. You can do nothing less. Ignore the people who poo poo this and say all men go through it. Idolatry isn't habitual sin. They_don't_understand.
Don't run to others for affirmation. Only God himself can help you through this. Christians can provide knowledge and tools but that's all. Our words aren't there to provide some superficial comfort. If your instinct is to run to people and verses instead of the God behind them yours is a superficial repentance, a spiritually immature all or nothing that's doomed to fail.
There's no rationalizing sin or putting it off. God states in Genesis 6:3 And the LORD said, My spirit shall not always strive with man, for that he also is flesh: I believe he creates windows for us to deal seriously with our sin, Matthew 18:9 And if your eye causes you to stumble, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell. That's not literal but it does mean take it very, very seriously. Doesn't matter how much it may inconvenience other things in your life, if you have to shut off the internet, run away from this however you need to. Make the necessary changes. Seek out help and prayer wherever you can. And faith is necessary to. Don't burn yourself out on fear alone. Have faith that he loves you and is doing this not because it's hard but because he loves you.