Today is day 0. I made it to three days and relapsed all over again. This Coronavirus really got me messed up because since I'm not working all I do is just stay in the house, bored. I've was doing good but for the past three weeks, I've been through hell. I take care of my mom and she's been really sick, had to call 911 for her twice. It's been rough, Thursday she passed out and was admitted to the hospital, but I couldn't go with her and that really gave me anxiety. I've had three family members die in that hospital and my sister died two years ago in our house, so I've been on edge and using porn to distract me. I feel terrible now and I ashamed while I was doing it. Today I installed a porn blocker and I want to try again. Sometimes, I feel like I can't beat this but I still want to try.