Hello everyone! 
I've been PMO-ing for 2 years now. I started beacuse I tought I'm in control, it hurts noone and I was bored. I did it about 3-4 times a week.
Last year I got depressed very badly, my social anxiety just grew stronger, I'll talk about it later.*
So I did it more often to compensate the lack of love (if my grades are good I get it, if I make a mistake I'm beaten, simple :/) and to blow off some steam. I realised this year how stupid was I. I made it into a habit, an addiction.
I can't last more than a week, I crave it so strong that I cannot concentrate on anything else, it feels like my brain is melting when I cannot do it at least once a week. I feel so lost, like a drug user.
*Not to mention the lack of luck with girls, I'm always rejected, I was on some dates but I got various excuses, the hardest to accept was that I'm boring. I don't have any chance for sexuality, I gave it up but I would lie if I would say I don't care, so please tell me: HOW CAN I SAVE MYSELF? Please help :/ I'm such a loser

I've been PMO-ing for 2 years now. I started beacuse I tought I'm in control, it hurts noone and I was bored. I did it about 3-4 times a week.
Last year I got depressed very badly, my social anxiety just grew stronger, I'll talk about it later.*
So I did it more often to compensate the lack of love (if my grades are good I get it, if I make a mistake I'm beaten, simple :/) and to blow off some steam. I realised this year how stupid was I. I made it into a habit, an addiction.
I can't last more than a week, I crave it so strong that I cannot concentrate on anything else, it feels like my brain is melting when I cannot do it at least once a week. I feel so lost, like a drug user.
*Not to mention the lack of luck with girls, I'm always rejected, I was on some dates but I got various excuses, the hardest to accept was that I'm boring. I don't have any chance for sexuality, I gave it up but I would lie if I would say I don't care, so please tell me: HOW CAN I SAVE MYSELF? Please help :/ I'm such a loser