Edit: There are two links to videos with former pornstars in this post. While the videos themselves don't really contain any triggers (you can see the girl talking obviously but she's dressed normally), the suggested videos in the youtube sidebar might contain triggers. Hi everyone! So my girlfriend broke up with me recently and I've been pretty down and frustrated for a while now. Along with this, urges to PMO have been coming back. I'm actually kinda ashamed to say it's not just MO but also P that I've been thinking about. Pretty stupid. Anyways, I found a few interviews on youtube with former pornstars and that got me right back on track. I stopped PMO back then because I didn't like what it did to me - but I never considered what it does to the performers! It all looks as if they all like what they're doing but now it looks like this is not the case for most of them. I always just watched more "high value" productions cause I thought there at least you can be sure the girls are into what they do. But now I came across an interview with an ex-pornstar which actually used to be one of my favorites and I feel fucking guilty for watching her videos now. The way she describes it, sounds as if she was basically being paid (shitty) to get raped on a daily basis. There's so much violence in P nowadays, she said you can't do it without painkillers. She had to do so many things she wasn't ok with, she's STILL paying medical bills because she constantly got infections and had to go to the emergency room MULTIPLE times during her short career in P. Appearantly that's not uncommon. The producers don't give a shit about the performers. And it's not just the female performers. The porn industry even damages highly decorated male performers appearantly. I'm still dumbfounded by all of this and how I never even thought about this. It's like this is the meaning of objectification. I didn't even see the performers as human beings anymore. So what I'm trying to say is: If you feel the urge to watch porn coming up, go watch an interview with a former pornstar first. Reconnect with the fact that they are human beings with feelings. Don't support an industry that treats people like that.