Hi there! I've tried NoFap about two months ago but after little over a month I broke up with my girlfriend and I just couldn't handle my emotions at the time and PMOed. And it became my habit again. Now I wish to start the challenge again. Previously my main reason was to not "cheat" on gf. Now I wish to center more around God which will be hard because I don't really feel connection with him right now. The fact that I prefer youtube to Bible does not help with that but I'm going to try reading in my free, maybe without meditation (as it just seems to my too mind consuming and I really want to relax after work and university) but to just have the contact with the Scripture. I wanted to start a journal because it's a way for me to show my feelings and thoughts to people with similar beliefs to mine, as in "real world" majority of my friends are atheists. It will also be some sort of accountability blog. It will also allow me to monitor my progress. Let's start. Day 0: So today I start. I'm a little bit afraid. I broke up with my girlfriend recently and I'm overflowed by emotions. My policy for the previous week was "you have to cope with the loss and loneliness first, don't restrict yourself". So I ate and drink and PMOed way too much. I'm afraid that restricting PMO will drive me crazy as it did previously. And it probably will. And the fact that I feel powerless when I'm not in relationship does not help. Yesterday at the mass was Parable of the Prodigal Son. It really spoke to me, but as you see day 0 is today not yesterday. I feel like a son who wants to feed on pigs' pods and somehow survives on the leftovers but I can't really feel the love of my Father to come to him for the real food and love. I hope NoFap will bring me closer to him.