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When I was younger, I remember wanting nothing more than to get rid of my addiction to porn. I felt it was ruining my life, but looking back, I think it was more about my perception of it and lack of commitment to outside things that ruined me. I didn’t go outside, I overall neglected to build...

Hey, my name's Will and I've been hooked ever since I was 12 years old and I'm 28 now. I really need to get this out of my life. I'm starting this journal for myself so that my journey can be witnessed by you guys :). I think it's powerful to admit my addiction out in the open and tell the...

Hi, I wrote this short letter purely to vent some of my thoughts. But I thought that perhaps someone else could find something of worth in them so I thought I would share. The porn industry promotes people as product, it will coerce, drug, force and employ violence to meet the demand for smut...

This is my first day, and although I’m feeling a bit down, I see it as a positive step forward. At 12 PM, I had a strong urge to watch porn, but I managed to resist it by turning off the internet. That was a small victory for me, and it felt empowering. One of the worst effects of porn...

Hey everyone, I'm new to this kind of thing. I've never been on any forums or sites similar to this one but recently (and by recently, I mean, over a year ago) I realized that I have a serious issue with pornography. It started slowly when I was a young kid. Probably around 11 or 12. It has...

Hey everyone! I hope you guys are doing well. It’s been about five days since I joined the community. The day I joined, I challenged myself to a PMO challenge for a week. I didn’t go for a straight 30-day challenge because I’ve been a severe PMO addict for the past four years. I used to PMO...

In the Name of Almighty the most Beneficent and the most Merciful. It's Homo sapien, Edit: " If anyone needs assistance, feel free to send a direct message. I'll be more than happy to help. Additionally, feel free to reply here, as I'm open to assisting others as well. " -Never lose hope...

For background - You may read this - https://forum.nofap.com/index.php?threads/my-hope-for-2024.355806/#post-3717279 Without further adieu, My Journey begins

Hey all. I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm no longer addicted to P. It's been over a year since I haven't watched it and I have no urge to do so. But one thing that's really been bothering me is my MO habits. A lot of the people here would say that MO without P is fine, but I've...

I have nineteen glasses of beetroot and a bunch of sugarfree vegetable juices. My goal is simple, I am fasting as long as I can. Why? You ask, because I'm a rabbit. And since I'm a rabbit I should be able to loose weight quick and efficiently. I also allow myself tea (and water of course) and...

Day 1 (here) Day 3 of NF So, I think journaling is going to help me stay focused. And also I'm a writer and so hopefully my words, as well as my experience, can help to inspire others. I've had quite a lot of anxiety recently about my addiction and the potential for it to damage my...

(Disclaimer: I watched a NoFap video from Hamza who mentioned to share your porn addiction story to someone or on NoFap community to feel better and open up. That's why I am writing this long story it might not be perfect but I'll try my best to explain it in a better way.) I have been bottling...

August 28th, 2023 Introduction of this thread: When I have urges, or feel like just giving in even though I know I should not, I’ll prob make notes here and there of the environment, my emotions, recent patterns, the toxic cycle, how long since last time I pmo’d, triggers etc. The more I add...

- Phrasing the journal in a positive way (focused around developing love) rather than on reducing addictive behaviour. *** Day 1. I feel quite good today. A path of radical honesty feels liberating, and I am finding other things to focus on pretty easily. I do feel a little lonely, which is...

5am to 6:30am Yesterday I wakeup at 5am, attend standup call in my work place + did meditation and write journal here Feeling low at morning and sleepy....so i slept and wakeup at 12:30pm 12:30pm to 2pm cold shower + Lunch + watch some random video on youtube 2pm to 4pm planning related to...

5am to 6:30am Yesterday I wakeup at 5am, attend standup call in my work place + did meditation and write journal here 6:30am to 9am I start working and at 9am my one task is merged to production 9am to 1:30pm mistake started using instagram + sleep + lunch and also i feel urges to watch porn...

5am to 6:30am Wakeup at 5am start making work target of the day and then did meditation and write journal here 6:30am to 10am study 10am to 11:30am I take rest 11:30am to 1pm I study 1pm to 2:30pm lunch + watch nofap videos and read some nofap related vlogs 2:30pm to 6pm helps others in...

6:30am to 9am Yesterday I wakeup at 6:30am then write journal, did meditation, connect with my mentor, attend class 9am to 11am Breakfast+sleep 11am to 1:30pm Study + lunch 1:30pm to 3pm read nofap blog + watch video related to nofap + sleep 3pm to 9:30pm Study + exercise + study 9:30 to...

Yesterday Due to late sleep in night...wakeup late in morning 10am to 12pm Do god worship 12pm to 1:30pm In hospital because doctor call my father 1:30pm to 5pm Lunch + little study + sleep 5pm to 11pm Celebrating parent anniversery then gone for sleep(mistake before going to sleep i use...

Yesterday I wakeup at 5am...not able to do meditation because of work in morning but write journal here 8am-1pm I procastinate and sleep 1pm-4pm Lunch and procastination(Watching random video) 4pm-9:30pm work on my task 9:30pm-2am Watch random video on youtube and sleep late in night But...

Yesterday I wakeup at 5am had a standup call and meeting with my teammates till 7am At 7am I write journal and did meditation 7am to 1pm -> I work on my work related task 1pm to 4pm-> Did mistake because of my work fatigue...not follow plan and while eating food i started watching youtube...

Yesterday I wakeup at 5am...participate in my work related call then at 7:30am I did meditation and write journal and did breakfast 8am to 10am -> I deeply work 10am to 11:30am->I slept(set a alarm to sleep 30min but slept 1:30hrs) 11:30am to 5pm-> I continue my working in between after lunch...

Yesterday I slept 8 hour's and start my day with meditation and Nofap website Then whole day busy with my study and at evening I did exercise...before going to sleep I control myself to not to visit youtube and rather than I scroll subreddit of nofap and then I feel sleepy and slept.

Don't waste as much time as I did. Life is short and we need our sex energy: 1. Porn does major damage, but we CAN have something better 2. Relapse with "wholesome" regular masturbation is much less destructive than porn- but can provoke porn urges if one is not prepared, and it can easily be...

Friends, peace, This is the 9th consecutive 90 day streak, & for this, I am grateful. I am, however, late in the posting. I have been busy--but I have profited much from my own writings. Even if my writings end up poor & bare, it has been useful to revisit the last 90 days' time. As usual...

I decided instead of constantly adding to my self-intro thread, to start a new one here and turn it into a journal. Prior posts copied over below. Day 1: Self-Introduction Thread Hello world, I'm 35, married to the love of my life with a wonderful family. And I am miserable. I have been using...

Hello all! After my first ever participation at the March NoFap 31 Days Hardmode Challenge I came here to post my progress. So today was Day 1. No urges at all. Did 100 push ups plus some abs (front-back). Planning on doing those excercises for about 15 days then switch to something different or...

Entry #1 It's been 4 days since i signed up and i joined the subreddit. Already relapsed 2 times. Both of them due to binging and edging on livestream sites and chatrooms. For some reason i've had the impression that they are better than watching full on porn. And i know its completely wrong...

I’m not new, not really. I’ve been here before. I need to feel closed to being exposed. I need to say almost everything. Kind of brave but still a coward, you know? I started a journal. It’s called “the journal of a hypocrite” Everyone is welcome to share their opinion. I like to think of me as...

I was told posting here is better for the type of post i want to do. Moving on i am falling deeper and deeper into something I would much rather control or remove from my life to say it simply. So far I am at the stage around indulging in porn for maybe 3 hours a day even if i don't watch it in...

I want to start off by saying my relationship with porn is the issue I don't ideally want to ever watch porn for sexual release. This thread will be me posting daily uploads of my thoughts. I don't think nofap is a cure but it will bring me closer to taking risks around making connections with...

I'm trying to give up my vices. I switched from YouTube, to Netflix, to games. I'm halfway to 30 days on nofap, which I've only done twice before. I'm aiming for 90 days, maybe a whole year, but hoping for the rest of my life. I want to break out of my bad habits and routine. I want to make a...

This will be the thread where I log my journey after almost 20 years of being addicted to masturbation in general, then eventually porn. I distinctly remember learning about jerking off and how good it felt when I was so young nothing would even come out when I orgasmed. I would do it every 10...

Hello all, I'm Abstract! This will be my Journal where I will log struggles, culminations, realizations, and wins. This will be primarily for my own reference, but I hope that what I choose to write, could inspire or help others. I've got goals, that are not well defined, but some of them...

I've decided to talk to more people when I'm not at home, and so far, it has been great. I think combined with nofap this has boosted my overall happiness, as nowadays I wake up looking forward to the day ahead. This has been a huge change for me, because last year, I hated my acquaintances...

Hello everyone, i have discovered nofap and the fact that it is an addiction in december 2020. Now it is march 2022 and i am back at the beginning. Well not at the total beginning because I have gained alot of experience concering nofap and live improvement in general, but at the beginning...

Day 1 Counters: No sweets/junk: 0 days No PMO: 1 days No youtube/social media: 0 days No videogames: 1 days Exercise: 1 days Meditation: 1 days Today I just did a short one minute sessions of...

This is my personal journal attempt, which I shall make public so others can hopefully help me, or listen into my thoughts. The first step to quitting is acknowledging it. Since I have had a hard time quitting porn in my head, I shall make it public, the journal where in a sense, it's no longer...

DAY 1 Hi, I am a 26 year-old trans guy from Germany. I M since I was 7 years old. I have been using P for 11 years. Over the years my consumption of P got more and more extreme. By now I PMO on a daily basis. Sometimes multiple times a day. I tried quitting PMO multiple times over the last...

Hi All, I did try abstaining from PMO last time, was successful for almost 130+ days. One of the best times (personally and professionally) I had in my life. But relapsed, and lately I've stuck in this constant loop of 2-3 days abstaining, then my mind switching itself to auto-pilot mode and...

Hey everyone. Around 5 years ago I started my nofap journey, and within a couple of years I got rid of watching porn, but the masturbation is still a problem, although it’s not as bad as it was when I started my Nofap journey. But I’ve decided that I want to get rid of it once and for all now. I...

Hello all, I am a 19 year old male, out of the great state of Colorado. It has been a little over a year since I started my Nofap journey, and my longest streak was close to 50 days. I got my EMT cert May of this year, and wanted to create a thread to see if there are any other EMS/Fire guys on...

I like the idea of a rebooting journal but...why? : / Is there an actual benefit from it? Can someone tell me a bit more please? (I also added a poll for those who want to share results anonymously :P)

So, it’s 3:07 am where I am living and I have to get up at 7:10, I have to take oral exam early in the morning. Being the idiot that I am, I relapsed just only after a one day streak, pathetic. Basically, my goal is to journal my period in the course of 30 days, with certain points: - Praying at...

Joined in as member last year, but only interacted with the site a little back then. Read a few posts and continued with the crap throughout. All throughout I kept on deciding to no PMO, but NEVER ACTUALLY DECIDED, and hence never actually executed the plans. Then came Ramadan this year, and...

Day 0 I just had some sleeping tablets so I am writing this in a rush before I fall asleep and I am drowsy when writing it so sorry about the quality. I must write it now so I start tomorrow following my new rules. Since my last posts I achieved a lot such as working out my career path and...

In our spirits, there is a split between good and evil, hate and love we live in a constant battle with our ego as it likes to defend itself. This constant battle is within us but we need to learn to conquer both sides that exist within us. learn to create light from the darkness. I see the...

Day-0 Relapsed :emoji_sweat_drops:in the morning :emoji_sunrise_over_mountains: felt sad :( but now I feel more determined :emoji_angry: for journey...

Hey guys! I am once again starting a new NoFap journey, and I would like to write my experience in a journal. I will try to write in this thread each day if possible. My current goal is mainly to stop watching porn, which is basic, but it is something I really want to accomplish.

Hey there hope you doing great. I have no idea on how to create journal Like what need to be written etc. Need a little help. Btw can I get a like I'm just on step away from unlocking my signature Thanks.

Hi everyone, it's Ale! I thought about making a journal where I record my successes (and my losses) on this forum. The aim is to motivate me and motivate you all during this fantastic journey of our lives. This has been the best choice I've ever done in my life and I want to share it with you...

This journal is intended for myself, but I want to put it where others can see in order to release internal burden. I hope one day to be a man with no secrets, who can say each action he did throughout the day with pride, and admit to all his faults. I am not that man yet, but hope to get...

Hello everybody! I will be creating this thread to journal my journey while on NoFap. Day 4 I woke up today feeling great! Last night I took a cold shower and I have been feeling pretty good. This morning I got some crazy urges and I am hoping I can last the rest of the day. I still have some...

Hello there, I've heard of the nofap community for quite a while now but despite my best efforts i just can't reboot on my own : the best i can do is 10 days without PMO, although recently my streaks didn't go beyond 1 or 2 days... and i've got to admit i really feel like a loser. My failures...

First I want to keep myself accountable by journaling everyday. This is a serious problem that has plagued my life for a number of years, its also added to not feeling satisfied sexually when being with a partner. Most importantly it makes you crave more, another girl - even when your with one...

12:10, August 3rd 2020 Did I even try hard enough? Learning about nofap is something that I am incredibly proud of. Probably top 5 things I am happy to have learnt. But somehow I never managed to pass the famous 30 day mark. It is something I am dreaming of. I want it really badly but I never...

5 minutes ago I started writing what happened today in my new journal. It is amazing, it's like talking to a friend, your future self. He knows you, you predict how he will look like, you joke on who you are with him, you tell your future self some details he might forget in the years. You...

Hey guys! I have recently made a discord server with the main purpose being sharing our experiences and progress on this EXTREMELY difficult journey of adapting to NoFap as a life style through journaling. Every day members will share their daily journals and members of the server will be able...

Hi everyone! I'm new here. Been hearing about this community and practice maybe few years ago. But finally, I have finally entered and decided to join people having a new shift in life. I started last week– it's my seventh day today. So, I rewarded myself signing up here today. It's been...

Today I bought a little journal/diary to practice journaling. My aim now is to express my thoughts and feeling on it so that I will be better at controlling them. It is even useful to compare your current feeling with the one of months ago. I personally suggest all of you from doing the same...

Hi everybody. I'm 19 years old and I have done PMO for at least 6 years. During this time, I sometimes had problems with my erections while being intimate with a girl. Recently, I started dating a girl that I really like, and I'm having one of the most meaningful relationships I've ever had...

Day 0: Hours After PMO Reset I was 7 days in but I gave in to my cravings for sexual pleasure this morning. I've never had a GF and I've had a life long battle of frustration with my relationship status. Pretty much all of my friends have girlfriends but never, ever fucking me. Yeah I'm...

Hi Guys, I'm quite new to this website and the concept of nofap so any tips, pointers, mindsets or lessons you can give me will be very appreciated. I feel as though I have to do this as for the last few years my life has been spiralling out of control and any hope of recovery quickly slips away...

So, I have successfully completed my 14 days today. I started this challenge and had a wish that this December, 2019 is going to be the first month in my entire life where I will not watch p**n and neither fap(since getting hooked onto it 4-5 years back) . A month completely free of my...

Hello all, I am a newly recruited anti-fapstronaught. I've decided to take on the big 90 challenge by trying something easier first, something you've bound to have heard about from social media—that something being good ol' NNN. I've been interested in NoFap before, and I'm currently about 8...

Around 2 years ago, I started covering up the sensitive part of my penis with band-aid every time I'm going to sleep or whenever I'm at home after 12 PM. The reason I'm doing this is the band-aid could act as a reminder that I shouldn't be masturbating. I usually masturbate when I'm supposed to...

I am thinking of carrying a pocket notebook with me everytime and writing about my activities, and their inferences, in certain spans of time(like 3-4 hours), throughout the day. That way, I'll know what are the things I'm doing as the day progresses. And it'll be easy to reflect as I'll know...

So like all of you, I am officially starting the Rebooting Challenge (Hard Mode) to regain control of my life. In the past, I did not consider myself an addict since on week-long trips with other people, I would not feel the need to PMO. However, being the introverted guy that I already am, PMO...

Hi guys. I have had streaks of 40, 37, 28 and 17 days in the past. The latest being the streak of 40 days. Since then, I've been struggling very hard and now I feel that I should take up a 15-day challenge. I will complete 3 days within a few hours. Please stay with me and help me achieve my...

Hi Guys! This is Daniel, an ex-porn addict. Reading your stories made me realize how we're all struggling with the similar addiction, that completely alters our lives beneath the surface while of course makes us feel freaking good, makes us feel like real alphas and true men - for a couple of...

Hey fapstronauts! its been a while since I ve logged into the nofap website. I dont know why that is but I ll tell u Guys that I ve come back more pathetic than how i had left. My streak intervals reduced drastically and now I m struggling to keep it under for a week. I ve joined for btech in...

Hey all, I (28) went on holiday and didn't masturbate for two weeks, figured I would extend it and try NoFap. I returned from the trip about a week ago now. I thought I'd share my experience. Presently, I'm past the 20 day mark. (Quite a bit more but I set a strict starting date of June 20th...

This is my second post actually, I really like to keep posting my progress weekly like a journal, I am not sure how to do that, can you help me please :) Thanks to all, and hope you all have a successful journey.

June 18th, 2019, 2102 hours: Hello, I'm DaveyCrockett. Here is my report of a list of benefits that I have experienced over the past 58 days of NoFap. "Brain Fog": My thought process and overall mental state is much more coherent and clear to me. It's as if my thoughts seem like solid...

Well I achieved my goal. However, I cant help but feel so guilty and feel like it was all for naught in the aftermath. Yep, that's right. I relapsed. And...I realised something. During the period I was restraining myself I was full of joy. Energetic, upbeat, wide awake and constantly doing...

I was addicted to porn n thats not the worst, i was doing all that with prone masturbation.For those who doesnt know what prone masturbation is, Prone masturbation is when u dry hump pillow,mattress or floor(Mine was mattress) to reach orgasam(atleast thats what i thought it was). I been prone...

Hello beautiful people, I'm going to start this archive of medical/ science articles and journal articles on PMO/masturbation and sexuality. On this NoFap website it has a wonderful amount of anecdotal evidence of the benefits of getting rid of porn, but I feel that some legitimate links to...

Introduction I've finally reached my goal of sustaining from P and M for 150 Days. I began PMO during my Freshman year of high school ( I'm graduating from college next year ) it's crazy to think back and realize in all these years this is the first 150 Days that I've left these things behind...

I do a lot of private journal writing. I find it helps me to sort through my thoughts and feelings. One technique I've been doing a lot of recently is writing unsent letters to people. You write a letter to someone, but with no intention of ever sending it. It just goes in your private...

Hey there! After >25 years of porn use it's time for me to get rid of this addiction. It started so soft with old Playboy magazines of my father when I was 13 and turned out to be both a safe escape from unpleasant feelings or a reward like it's for others drinking a few beers every night. My...

I don't mean to go into my entire back story (now); that is everything that has lead me to this moment. I am merely writing to give some insight to those of you who are struggling as I did for years to get even a week of sobriety. I also want to preface that 75 days is the most time I have ever...

Hi Guys, I started this account to keep track and motivate myself in this NoFap journey. It's been already 10 days since I started NoFap. Hoping to go longer without PM. Thanks NoFap site for this awesome community.

About me - I am a 19 yo boy from INDIA and i have been trying to get clean from the past 3~4 years and i have failed miserably.I have suffered a lot due to masturbation and i am still suffering the consequences ( i will discuss in detail below ). I found Nofap many years ago and due to repeated...

Assalaamu'alaikumwarahmatullahiwabarakaatuh and greetings, fellow Fapstronauts! I'm not so new here, although my account is new. I've been reading NoFap for a few years now, and I had another account before this one. Here, I'd like to share my PMO addiction story, and maybe some other things...

I have tried a couple of times of making a journal or diary but it never worked out. But here I am trying again after what seems like the millionth relapse. Not only that but the past week I have been struggling with procrastination of my studies and I feel like shit because I think I bombed a...

A story that sticks with me always came from an offhanded comment a professor made in a Lit class. We were discussing Hamlet and the context of what ghosts meant in that time. What made a ghost was simple. If you spent your life building your treasure in heaven you would go there. Conversely if...

Whether you're a PA or SO would you want your kids to read your journal? Does it scare you that they might come across it someday? How would you react if they told you they read it?

Hello everyone... I've been trying to remove this habit of M since 2 years now..my personal best was no pm for 56 days..But now I'm starting from day 1 and I want to break my old record and set free from this devastating habit. As a new habit, I will post my everyday experiences in here...Hope...

I am going to start a journal to keep my journey documented. It is mostly self serving so I dont expect many replies, but I myself enjoy reading other peoples randomish thoughts so maybe some of you will like it. My friend x came over today and we worked on our programming project. I lost...

I am a deep thinker and guy with a big heart but unfortunately deeply in porn and fapping. I started my own journal here - you can access it on the left side under my nickname. I wanted to have this "more visible" thread as well where I would love to share some thoughts which I have shared...

Hello, I would like to keep an app on my phone so I can log how many days clean I am. How many days I have succeeded etc. Do any of you use apps to log days, can you recommend any? Thanks

Hello. I am good with streaks, in fact, I've been practicing with Duolingo for 724 days. I am about to start a different streak. Some of you could think that bringing this up is ridiculous. Well, maybe. I want to make it look not so difficult to start, I know there are many factors waiting...

Hey everyone, As awful as it feels to be back here, I'm also glad there is a support system here to hopefully help and accompany me on this annoying as heck journey. To begin with, I'm gay so anyone who has issues with that should click return. I wonder where should I start, but I'll make it...

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Hey Guys, how you all doing? I want to share my experiences so far during my first week. First, I need to say I am practicing other habits that, of course, have some impact in the benefits that I am experimenting: meditation, listening to mantras (30 minutes per day), taking cold showers...

What's up man. I can honestly say that I did not think I would make it 30 days, and even thought about relapsing this morning. For all of you who aspire to make it to 30 days, realize that this is only the beginning of a long, hard journey. My life has gotten much better in many ways; I love...

So I have 97 more posts to do here on Nofap. I honestly haven't been experiencing urges. I usually don't in the early days. Probably when I get a week in is when I begin to covet and my eyes start to wander to every woman I see. So by then is when I will need you guys help. I mean, my urges...

Hey all, I have been a stalker of this forum for a long time now I have decided to join you brothers and sisters. I have a perennial issue of PMO. Particularly P-Subs. I stalk on Instagram/tumblr and have been trying to get out of it for the past 8-9 months. Any suggestions to overcome this...

Hey guys! Let me introduce myself: I am Isaac and I've been rebooting for 3 months, but I never have the success I really want... My longest streak is 12 days, and I think that's pretty disappointing. BUT! I'm not giving up. So, I was thinking, what better way to improve myself by helping others...

My name is Xavier. I started watching porn at a young age, since then it's been in and out of my life..I've gone through social anxiety which I think all this made more prominent. I have anxiety, OCD. I think keeping an online journal of each day is the next step for me being able to express...