Mandalorian Challenge 100 Days + [OPEN]

Day 33.

 

Day 1

This is some great stuff, thanks for sharing mate

I hope the additional therapies are helping with symptoms and root causes. It seems like it really is a lifelong journey to figure out who and why we are the way we are, and how to maintain positive relationships with ourselves and others amongst it all. I really want to rise above it all. Sometimes I become overwhelmed, or give up, forgetting the joy that came from being authentically connected with people, and I wonder if this is what it's like for others (I certainly suspect so). Anyway, thinking of ya.

Btw, I'm an electrician myself. After a couple of months off after the last project finished, I fly off to my next one tomorrow morning. I do QA/Commissioning on new mines, and this next one is LNG - my first gas project. In Australia there's a shortage of us, so plenty of work available, and the money is pretty good. It's usually big hours though, which after 11 years (plus 4yr apprenticeship), I don't think is sustainable for me. There are alternatives, and I could possibly move sectors a bit, which is something I'm considering (in addition to a complete change).

 

Day 2 complete

 

Day 35.

 

Day 14

 

Day 8 checking in. This the way

 

Day 3 checking in.

This is the way.

 

Day 36. Over 5 weeks! That's a first since...maybe I was 10 years old?

 

Day 15

 

Day 37.

 

Day 0 Checking in. This is the way.

 

Day 0 checking in.

Wowsers! That's amazing, well done!

 

Day 1. Gonna call my accountability partner more often for a while. Seems like I was having more success.

 

Day 17

 

Day 38.

 

Day 39 of abstaining from Porn and Masturbation...I made love to my wife last night for the first time since beginning this change. It was an incredibly connected experience! We have not been well-connected for years (probably mainly due to my un-addressed alcoholism and PMO addiction) and it had probably been 5 months since we had sex. I had reached a place where I thought about sex constantly but wouldn't or couldn't put the work in to actually flirt with or seduce my wife and would just satisfy myself through PMO. My wife has told me many times since hitting my alcohol bottom (now sober almost a year and a half) that she will count on me to instigate sex as she is still recovering from the trauma of that alcohol bottom and doesn't feel confident in herself to instigate. The last few days we have really been having great/connected conversations and last night I finally moved past a connected conversation to instigate flirting and intimacy. I am so glad I did! It was so much more than sex. I wasn't focusing on getting my "needs" met, but focused on pleasing her in a way that made her feel safe, loved, and ultimately satisfied. There is no way that last night could have happened (and happened the beautiful way that it did) without the growth this Nofap journey has given me so far. To say that last night was a validation for this journey would be an extreme understatement. I am keeping vigilant for a possible physical "chaser effect" from last night, but in general, I'm extremely grateful for this bit of positive proof of the benefit of choosing to struggle against this addiction. I'm very excited to see how I'll continue to grow in the future and to what heights this right way of living will lead me to! Thank you again for all of the support from this community!...This is definitely The Way!

 

Day 0, but a not as bad one haha. I edged earlier today but never orgasmed and got a call from my counselor while I was doing it. I stopped and picked up the phone, there had been a cancelation at 1, it was 12:40. Part of me didn't want to go in but the other part of me said run from the p*rn rn, and I followed that part. I had to walk to the appointment because I don't have a car right now. I was proud I did this, God provided a way of of temptation (1 Corinthians 10:13). This is the way.

 

Day 0.

Reading your updates has been super encouraging, thanks @RogueLeader and @person person

 

Day 40.

 

Glad to hear something I wrote was helpful. Hang in there my friend!