Thanks @Supercalafragilistic I’ve always admired the story of Jesus Christ and tried to live a good life, but I don’t think that has protected me from pain and misery. Today was a beautiful day and I felt tired and sick. Praise Jesus! I wish I had never been born. My father left my handicapped mother and I to suffer alone and my existence seems like a a burden to others. I have been used and abused and spend nearly everyday alone and depressed. I don’t want to expect that Jesus will help me, but I still pray for relief from my misery. I’ve prayed for death more than anyone should ever have to, and I accept that love and happiness is still just a dream I have. And for this, that, and everything else, I’m sorry.