Mental health

Now i did nt want to think this pmo streak as a task to be done forcefully.
It should be natural.
I am aware of my compulsive thoughts when i am calm and relaxed.
When i am over tired, mentally exhausted , frustrated , facing failure's in day to day life, these compulsive thoughts About pornography and masturbation get attentive.
My heart is saying go get a cold shower , do meditation, listen calm music, or other task involves me whole but inspite of that i watch porn and do masturbation while watching...

Now im on my way to abstain these energy consuming addiction
This is my 5th day of sobering ..