mobile

yesterday my father randomly asked me to give up using my mobile-it happened in the evening. well he had got me a new smartphone due to the fact that my old one had stopped working.
i use my smartphone primarily as a method to tackle loneliness during the daytime I watch yt on it and listen to a few videos these days (earlier i used to chat with ladies online-but have refrained myself from doing that in the last month)

it honestly feels like trying to get off a drug. like i gave him my mobile about 18 hours back and last night it took my quite a while to get to sleep. like almost an hour. i could actually feel the addiction. my head was hurting and i wasn't able to think straight while in bed-i was craving the scrolling of yt before sleeping. It was disturbing to know that i am so very dependent on the smartphone.
i actually my brain change internally-more like the rearrangement happening. Now my mobile already has been cut-off,so now i plan to take it one step further-rather than taking it as something that should not have happened i will be converting this into a challenge for myself.
i will turn this into a dopamine detox-one cold turkey dopamine detox i will try coz why not? i already don't have a lot of things that help me feel better why not try this??

for this i will be

• abstaining from using reddit or any other social media for about a month.
• not listen to music for a month's time.
• no viewing of porn.(obviously-- detrimental to SR journey)
• increasing my reading during during the day because i feel it helps the mind relax and feel comfortable also it keeps me occupied with productive matters rather than scrolling youtube.

now the problem is that i use mobile phone even while consuming my food-i watch food videos on it while i eat my lunch and breakfast. well i gotta break it -this habit.

also i see this as another boon to cross my 30 day mark as all the relapses that I've had till now-majority of them have been in the bath and all because i carry my smartphone over there-away from the eyes of people and indulge in THE MISDEED.

it's not even been 24 hrs and i feel the withdrawals really bad. but i gotta go trough it to actually rewire myself.