My Journal. 8:51 PM 21-Sep-19

I don't know how to put this chronologically so i am just gonna say it in pointers.

I Resumed the challenge after a long time. I think more than a month has passed since my last effort of 25 day streak.
I was demotivated and lazy so I just gave up on the challenge all together.

Ten days ago I started challenge again. Which ended the streak today at this time.
So 10 day streak. I relapsed because of a serious stress and panic.

I was stressed since morning regarding my career prospects. I was feeling very good regarding my streak of NoFap however. So this relapse was not about the Porn addiction , It was about the stress of my life which I cannot handle. I didn't have any other way to relive my stress.
*Now saying that it seems like I am making excuses. Maybe I am. But I will still forgive myself. Because I Cried my eyes out today. And that is saying something about my Stress. I never cry. I am a very "Heart of Stone" like person. I Rarely cry.
But I did today. So It was a pretty big deal.

I forgive myself. I already started the counter again. I am back on the journey.