My Journal

DAY 1

Hi,
I am a 26 year-old trans guy from Germany.
I M since I was 7 years old. I have been using P for 11 years.
Over the years my consumption of P got more and more extreme. By now I PMO on a daily basis. Sometimes multiple times a day.
I tried quitting PMO multiple times over the last few years. My motivation to quit this time is, that I realized how much my consumption is affecting my non existing love life, my friendships and I even was late for work multiple times because of it.
In my free time I seem to only work towards my PMO session instead of being productive, socialise or follow my passions.

Last night I remembered NoFap and wanted to give it a go. So I signed up and deleted my accounts on P platforms and uninstalled chat apps, that I used for PMO.

Let's go!

 

Day 2

I am going 2 days without PMO. The last time In went 2 days without must have been months ago... I try to keep focussing on the goal. Stressful days at work trigger the urge to PMO nonetheless... I have to stay strong and resist.
I am going to put my phone away before I go to bed and read a book... This will help, I hope

 

Day 3

Feeling so bad today... Bought some pricy tech that I cannot use the way I want to. Which means I lost some money... Then I saw the guy I really like, but he rejected me multiple times in the past. The problem is that we also made out a couple of times in the past few years and I can't get him out of my head.

So stress, anger, sexual frustration and the feeling of lonelyness are adding up today...

I know what my typical coping mechanism would be... But In can't do that.

 

Day 4

Today, I felt super tired all the time... Also got a headache. At least I got something productive done...

 

Day 5

Staying busy helps... I tidied up my kitchen and met a friend today. I could so some laundry still.

Sometimes my mind wanders off... Or I get triggered by things I hear or see... Gotta keep going.

Last post in newbies. I'll post in the age category next