MY NEAR RELAPSE

Damn I have been here way too many times..... See other times I just gave in and went down this deep dark path of porn and masturbation that seemed to never end. You see I have been fighting this addiction for over two years. What is sad is the most success I have ever made was going 21 days. Yea I know that is sad.

So today when the urges came they hit hard. It was almost like instantly as soon as I woke up I was getting hit. It didnt and still hasnt stopped. At one point I almost felt like just saying fuck it and giving in. So here is the real question. For those who have long streaks how do you deal with these intense battles???

Like even when I did things like getting out of the house, not being alone in my bedroom etc there still was an urge. What should I be aware of in the days coming and how can I fight these urges better.

 

I just kept in mind that it's not gonna take me anywhere. I want to be somebody with goals and achievements.
Month ago I could deadlift 90kg. For my 81kg it's... Beginners level. I didn't stop. I stopped fapping at september 1st and I knew that this shit is gonna take me somewhere.
Yesterday I was deadlifting with friend. Deadlifted 130kg. See? Time goes by just a little bit and huge changes can come into the game. I go to gym, love music more than ever and just... Think more realisticaly. Write down things that are annoying about fapping, that affect you bad. Believe me - there's a lots of these things. And then just go. Set it as a motivator and never forget one more thing! It's not gonna be easy and it's not gonna be fast. And that's why it's great!

 

Well today I was working all day so I didnt have the time to be home to think about it much. Then after work I went to the gym for a bit and tried my best not to look or comment on hot girls working out. So today went well. But I get what your saying. I actually have a plan (well somewhat) for recovery. One of those things in my plan is to replace old habits with new better and healthy habits to fill up my time. I dont have it all worked out quite yet but its getting there.