Been struggling w PMO for almost 30 yrs. Sex addict, relationship addict, divorced twice. Sexually abused as a kid by family member. Amazing I've had a successful career. In and out of therapy my whole life. Third wife moved out left me a year ago. Always had great sex life with women and still did PMO with a vengeance at every chance. At the worst I would go for days PMO'ing. Have tried to quit for years and would last about two days. Lost my job when the COVID happened and when lockdown hit I decided I better try again otherwise I'd be at it 24/7. I would visit the forums here when I be drawn to the phone to distract myself and view P. My attention span sucks. Over the last three months I made it about 2 weeks at most and would have a brief instance relapse of PMO. Then abstain for a few days or week. A couple weekends ago I spent time with my separated wife and it didn't go well. Came home and went on a bender for like five days - 12 to 14 hours a day with PMO. What the heck was I doing??? finally pulled out of it and decided I better sign up and join the community and hopefully have a place to go instead of P sites. I read my story here and I'm stunned - how f'ed up has my life been. I got four days now with no PMO. Thanks for reading.