Hi everyone, this is my first post and new to Nofap
The reason I came to seek help to this website was because I have been PMO since I was around 13-14 years. It all started as vanilla and normal sex porn. Eventually, my interests/kinks/fetishes started escalating into joi, face-sitting, cei, leather, which took me into Femdom. This was a fun and intriguing idea since I got very turned on by the idea of a dominant woman in control. I started exploring many subcategories within Femdom. By this I got into Face-sitting, cbt, cei, humiliation, anal play, at a time to time got the urge to wear a pair of panties, and at the end (which I am now) I got into pegging. Which I know, its kind of deep into the rabbit hole.
The idea of a female doing this sort of things to me or forcing me to do them just turns me on completely compared to simple vanilla porn. The fact is, that I am terrified by this. I look back onto what I liked before and it has changed drastically. I can say that since I was little I found it attractive to have a woman face-sit me, but that was just it. A simple fetish. Now, everything has escalated massively and have a ton of "weird" fetishes in my point of view.
Nowadays, my social life is actually good, but the thing is that whenever I talk to a girl I always try to notice a dominant feature in her. Whether it being her aspect or her personality, since is what turns now turns me on. Recently I have come to the conclusion that this is not me, and I don't like this at all. I wish and would do anything possible to be the way as I was before. Just see woman as they are and not having any Femdom thoughts interact in my way.
I am currently 11 days into the NoFap challenge and seeking for more. Are these fetishes somehow normal? Once I am done, how am I sure if my reboot is complete? What has helped you? I really want to make this work. I really need some help to get my life back together. It would be greatly appreciated.
Best regards
P.S: During these days, since I stopped PMO I have even had vivid femdom dreams. I have had to awake myself due to the risk of unconscious MO. Are these dreams normal? And if by any circumstance I ejaculate while asleep, will my reboot have to start all over again?
The reason I came to seek help to this website was because I have been PMO since I was around 13-14 years. It all started as vanilla and normal sex porn. Eventually, my interests/kinks/fetishes started escalating into joi, face-sitting, cei, leather, which took me into Femdom. This was a fun and intriguing idea since I got very turned on by the idea of a dominant woman in control. I started exploring many subcategories within Femdom. By this I got into Face-sitting, cbt, cei, humiliation, anal play, at a time to time got the urge to wear a pair of panties, and at the end (which I am now) I got into pegging. Which I know, its kind of deep into the rabbit hole.
The idea of a female doing this sort of things to me or forcing me to do them just turns me on completely compared to simple vanilla porn. The fact is, that I am terrified by this. I look back onto what I liked before and it has changed drastically. I can say that since I was little I found it attractive to have a woman face-sit me, but that was just it. A simple fetish. Now, everything has escalated massively and have a ton of "weird" fetishes in my point of view.
Nowadays, my social life is actually good, but the thing is that whenever I talk to a girl I always try to notice a dominant feature in her. Whether it being her aspect or her personality, since is what turns now turns me on. Recently I have come to the conclusion that this is not me, and I don't like this at all. I wish and would do anything possible to be the way as I was before. Just see woman as they are and not having any Femdom thoughts interact in my way.
I am currently 11 days into the NoFap challenge and seeking for more. Are these fetishes somehow normal? Once I am done, how am I sure if my reboot is complete? What has helped you? I really want to make this work. I really need some help to get my life back together. It would be greatly appreciated.
Best regards
P.S: During these days, since I stopped PMO I have even had vivid femdom dreams. I have had to awake myself due to the risk of unconscious MO. Are these dreams normal? And if by any circumstance I ejaculate while asleep, will my reboot have to start all over again?