Hi, guys! Marcus here, 26 yo, at my 3rd attempt (1st one lasted 40 days; 2nd 5 days, both a long time ago). I'm gay, completely ok with my sexuality, and hope this doesn't prevent you from reading the entire post, and I'll try to summarize my story: Never had ANY childhood experiences with neighbors or cousins of any sex, at all. Started fapping at +-11 just to the sensation of my hand on my nick, nothing on mind. A little later, on my way to school, accidentally found a page ripped from a magazine that contained scenes of a man and woman having sex and felt extremely aroused by the man, and started visiting that place every morning going to school just to see those images. Months later, got my first computer with internet, already knowing I was only attracted to men, and started going through sex stuff online and PMing which continued to this day (15 years). Only started kissing and having sex at the age of 18! But every time I had sex, to make my penis hard and reach an orgasm I've had to think of a porn scene or erotic story. Can anyone else relate? I'm so terrified of never actually starting to like sex for what it is, and also afraid as to how I should approach a partner. Anyone in the same boat?