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After trying this for a year, I decided to make an account. So I'm going to try and introduce myself quickly, but it's not easy to write so some parts might be confusing.

I started with PMO when is was 12, then it was just MO, no porn involved. I didn't think it was anything bad, but looking back, I realize that around this time I detached myself from my parents and my family. I think this is because I knew what I was doing was harmful, or at least I suspected it. Then I used porn daily, no matter where I was or the situation, I thought it was a good thing. Then I started PMOing more than once per day, and I still didn't think of it as a real issue, even though it was destroying my social life and my academic life. Then I got older, and I started to notice the time I was losing and the problems I brought to myself and those around me. I saw how far away from my family and friends I had become. It's like I can't trust them, I can't tell them anything because I don't want to be a failure in their eyes. So I did research, I found NoFap, and I decided I should try it. I tried for a long time, the longest I got to was a week, then I fell back into pattern. It hurts, all of this, because I can't admit it to anyone I know, I can't talk to anyone honestly, openly. I don't want to lie, but I don't want to disappoint with the truth. This is hopefully going to work. Things haven't changed, I need a fresh start but at most I can try this.

Thank you,

Shoulder

 

Thank you, I will try as many times as I have to.