No PMO for 3 days! Want to join in?

Yes! I gave up on the 7th day. This was on Monday. I had my time with M and P this days. But tomorrow i'll start another 7 days strike. It's been realy realy realy bad this days .... lots of death toughts and depression.

I've discovered that depression and death thoughts have a good intention behind them. De-pression means the pressure is taken off from your sholders. De-pression numbs you a bit and relaxes your body, but happend after i gave up. So until then is over-pression. After i've mastrubated and watched porn i got into the next stage off dealing with pressure: depression. Also death thoughts make me to let myself and my plans to go with the flow. In this case is the flow of death, but not quite death because i don't attempt to kill myself and i'm alive. The death grip i think is more like the last citadel that has to be destroied just to allow yourself to feel the no war situation. I get exhausted during the dearh grip and after that i get numbed (no pression stage) and just fall into a deep sleep and relaxation.

There is more on this to say, but for now i'll esop here.

Next day i start my second attempt for 7 days in a row! (Tgis is the start of another sequence of over-pressure when i hope i'll discover new things about my sexuality and my whole self). Hope to be on my side again guys! Thanks for being there!