NoFap vs. Long-time illness

Discussion in 'Loneliness' started by praus6qwet, Nov 26, 2019.

  1. praus6qwet

    praus6qwet New Fapstronaut

    Hey, I'm Tony, a 24-year-old from the Czech Republic.

    My situation is quite specific, as I'm sure everyone's is. I first came in contact with PMO in primary school, at around 12 years of age and was then consuming it for most of my life, daily in later years.

    Just 15 month ago, I had pretty much everything you could ask for. I was doing bachelors degree in foreign languages, even did two semesters in Spain, had a part-time job. As far as hobbies go, I'm a "self-taugh musician" and I did a lot (some 6 years, 3-5 times a week) of amateur level combat sports, MMA, kick-boxing, brazilian jiu-jitsu and weight training. I have always been a tall (194cm/6'4) and skinny guy (a huge cause of inferiority complex for me) , but this helped me get in shape , it boosted my self-confidence and made me feel masculine. I never had any real luck with girls, even though there always were some, but it didn't really bother me, since i was mainly focusing on myself. While doing all this, PMO was always a daily habit.

    Then it hit me, 15 months ago, I got into really weird states of both physical and mental exhaustion, I couldn't focus nor think clearly, heavy brain fogs etc. I had to quit everything, school, work, fighting, and became practically house-bound. I was later told that the possible cause might be post-viral/chronic fatigue syndrome.

    Some 8 month into the illness, I decided I could use all the time I was wasting at home to change something in my life for the better, and that's when NoFap, together with other self-improvement stuff, came into the picture. I pretty much just watched a few YT videos and decided to quit. No real urges, everything pretty smooth. Funny, that I was doing PMO on the daily when I was busy studying, working and doing all the sports, yet later, house-bound with way too much time on my hands, I was able to just give it up.

    I've been free of PMO for almost 7 months now on my first try (slow clap for myself), but while others might start to feel the benefits by now, it's not really the case for me. I feel some sense of pride and accomplishment for being able to control myself, but I'm still far from being a free of the fatigue syndrome and becoming a functioning member of the society once again. These past 15 months have also been pretty lonely, with a lot of friends "abandoning" you after a few months of being ill etc. As you can imagine, girls aren't crazy about someone like me, with no real social or professional life. In addition, I have been noticing returning urges in the past few days.

    Lastly, I feel like things are moving forward now, I've started with some very light exercise, and later this week I'm going to work for the first time again. I'm only allowed a couple hours per week, but I need to get out of the house and see some real people again. Let's see, if I notice come of the benefits everyone's talking about.

    I guess there is no real question in my post, I just needed to say all this, but I'd welcome any feedback, experience or advice you can offer.
  2. Robinthehood

    Robinthehood Fapstronaut

    I have spent plenty of time in 'isolation'. Only when I left and started interacting with people again did I realise the growth I had made.
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  3. letter

    letter Distinguished Fapstronaut

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    Yeah, people will do that. When you’re down you find out how few and far between are those who will be there for you.

    I’m glad you’re on the mend. Dude, I’d listen to your doctors here. Your symptoms really could be because of illness. I’d encourage you to stay off porn, because that tends to just make any negative feelings you have worse.

    Keep going and when you’re healed from this illness you’ll be ready to face life with all kinds of energy and vigor :) You’re still young. You’ve got all kinds of time to build an incredible life while you can still enjoy it.

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