I'm afraid that if I go on a long streak like 180 days, 360 days... I'll just see one P pop up ad, end up PMOing, and feel horrible. What is it like on the other side of the tunnel?
I can´t tell exactly how it is after 365 days, Ive read some posts that it becomes way easier to handle trigger since you don´t kind of switch your personality into that porn driven beast. On my experience, till day 4 it´s so freaking difficult, after that it becomes so much more easy, only remember that you´ve made a decision, you have a reason why you don´t M to P and then you can ignore triggers that pop up. I also learned that every time I start a streak without being aware of doing the decision, I fail after just a few days.
The only thing that's easier is that you have become better a managing the triggers. To get a long streak you have to have coping strategies and you have to have worked out why it's important to you (for me, it's religion and the fact that I have a much more "can do" attitude to life now). My brain still lights up like electricity when I see a P sub. They recently added "Fifty Shades of Grey" to Netflix and I got that familiar surge of dopamine. It's easier to handle now though. I still close my eyes if there's a sex scene in a movie that I wasn't expecting, it's more now though that I don't want t see it. We're all still fallible. I'm not 100% sure I'll ever lose that bit of my brain that could lead me down that dark path again. That was true for me until about day 70. I hit a really deep flatline and the urges were so strong at that point. Id urge everyone to be prepared for that. It got much easier again after around day 100.