Hi fellow Fapstronauts, it's been more than a year since I've decided to abstain from any sexual activity in order to stop long lasting addictive compulsive behavior. I first targeted 90 days, then prolong the target to 180 days and then extend it again to a whole year. But now the time has come to draw a line in the sand somewhere and call it a day. I know I have to stay humble and vigilant as overconfidence can be a shortcut to binge PMO hell, but for the first time in my life, I think, I can say with some degree of certainty, that I have finally succeeded in stopping the behaviour that was ruining my mental and physical health for the last 2 decades of my life. To be completely honest, I'm still not where I want to be as anhedonia is still a thing, but I think that prolonging celibacy is not the right answer to a problem at hand. I don't want to turn into one of those forum members who blame PAWS for all of their ills in infinitum. In my humble opinion, other "tools" need to be used to recover lost health and find some joy in life again. Abstention can only do so much. While NoFap forum has been of great help on my path to recovery, I think the time has come to limit it's use. I still intend to post new personal growth findings and recommendations in my journal occasionally, but I'll refrain myself from commenting and posting on daily basis as I think I have not much to say anymore. All the things on addiction and growth I have learned and found useful during my reboot have been shared already either on this forum or in my journal. To get to the point. I'd like to ask you what do you think would be the best way to end the monk mode? I would like to end it with something that I could remember for the rest of my life. I was thinking about going on 40 days pilgrimage to thank God for helping me find the right knowledgeable people and giving me the will and strength to endure all the suffering that finally enabled me to dig myself out of addiction rabbit hole. I'm hoping that this long walk would also clear my head of all distractions so I could think more clearly about what goals should I pursue in the future. The timing is just perfect to do something like that, because my job contract expires in March, giving me enough free time to pull it of. Do you think this is a good idea? Can you think of any better suggestions how to find closure? Also if you have any questions feel free to ask.