Please help me I want to get out of it

First of all, good for you! You can totally change your life and overcome this issue. It won’t be easy but it sounds like you’re ready.

Sometimes it might seem impossible but that feeling comes from a lack of awareness. Think of it this way: if a person has a hammer in their hand and they keep beating themselves in the head with the hammer, the solution is to remove the hammer so that they can no longer hurt themselves. So how do you remove the hammer in the situation with PMO?

The answer starts with awareness. When does it happen? How does it happen? There may be situations (triggers) where you feel more tempted to turn to PMO. Like when you are bored or lonely. Many time we use PMO to escape uncomfortable situations or feelings. Maybe you’re stressed because of an upcoming exam so you escape for a while by using PMO. The problem with this is that the escape is temporary and you usually end up just feeling worse about yourself.

Also, does it happen at night? Do you take your phone to bed with you? Etc.

So eventually you start seeing patterns of when and how it happens. The next step is removing those triggers. How do you deal with those uncomfortable situations in a healthier manner? You must find replacement activities. If your lonely, maybe call someone instead. If you’re bored, go find something to do to keep yourself distracted. Keep you phone in a different room at night. Don’t fixate on thoughts of PMO. Think of something else. If you’re stressed, go exercise or go for a walk. Find solutions to those triggers.

The problem with addiction is that you have turned to PMO so many times that your brain has created a neurological pathway to PMO. It takes a while to reprogram that pathway into healthier pathways. With abstinence and with new alternative behaviors, that pathway will fade away and you will eventually be free. The pathway never fully goes away though. You must never use PMO ever again or the pathway will re-establish itself.

You can do this, no matter how many times you have failed. It helps to have a support network. It especially helps if you have a friend or family member that you can confide in. NoFap also helps. This community is very supportive and can help motivate you and teach you how to overcome this addiction.
Best of luck to you!