Repetitive Dream

I m getting dreams of having sex with that one Girl( whom I meet daily)almost every time these days ,even in my afternoon nap.and no more porn dreams.I feel pathetic after the dream especially I feel the need of me touching my genitals .how shall I handle that

 

Oh. But why the same girl and in same clothes that she wore that day .I do not orgasm in the dream though that what triggers me to touch down

 

I realised that this is going to be cause of relapse for me.
Did you mean the same@peaceseeker

 

But what about that fact that I masturbate after the dream

 

Actually we had been good friends for a year now but off lately she had been coming very close to me .like standing so close that I could actually grab her as I like
She even once pressed her chest against me (for which she said sorry and said it was accidental).She he a lot going on in her life and her family is broken now she lives with her mom.
The thing is that I found it very uncomfortable about this closeness in public and at the same time it was first time some girl we actually that close .

SO I asked her upfront about the same.She Said she became so comfortable that she forgot about social norms.Then I directly asked her Do you like me?
To which she replied "I don't know.Anyways we won't be compatible so drop this topic"
So I assumed she is not romantically interested .

She had been sharing a lot about her life and I had tried to help her whenever possible.but I don't want to get into relationship with her as
1.I don't have time to spend with her outside our daily meet at college
2.I cannot afford a gf
3.my financial condition is very worse so I need to study hard to secure a job and this thing might come as an obstacle.

But then why such dreams.Again I don't want to fuck some girl and leave her (I have values).I feel she is not of my type

But then why should I dream of her.This is strange

PS:I haven't had sex and never dated any girl yet.yes I had lot of crushes who actually befriended me

Another thing is that I just don't feel like talking to any girl these days .This relationship and marriage seems like a scam to me these days.I don't feel the need to touch any girl from last few days.

I have reset my counter which I had forgot so I am not on day 35 but on day 9 .

 

The answer comes out to be yes. This is a dilemma now.It's not good for me but .

I have to first set myself on the path to success which may require my undiverted attention.I cannot provide the time she might want to spend in relationship with me if she is into it.

Highest priority now is to jump out of my pmo addiction and resolve my inner conflicts and get Busy.

I don't feel motivated though to actually pursue any girl right now .All of them are the same.they have almost same height same assets etc. I feel self sufficient and I don't think I need a girl beside me currently.just that on some days I get Very Strong urge to touch a girl(not inappropriately though).

I feel this thing of dating ,Girlfriends is not for me.
PS:I AM NOT GAY AND I KNOW IT

 

@aguy100 are you American or westerner?
Because concept of friends with benefits isn't present in our culture.

I respect her and every woman I meet however this respect is the reason why I never made any move to have a gf

THE Thing is that I had been disrespecting those pornstars so much that it degraded my self esteem and now when some real girl actually want to get close to me,I fear her.

Yes I admit I fear real girls,especially when they come close

One more thing,I am emjoying the attentionn she gives to me but I don't show it.

 

So I finally told her through messaging app that I have been dreaming about her and about sex with her to which she laughed and told me it's okay to dream stuff as it is not reality.

She also confessed that she had a BF a year ago and she had done everything with him except penetrative sex.She is single now.She laughed more as she thought I was an Innocent guy.
She inquired about what all I did with her like in detail .I was embarrassed to describe it

I Confessed to her that I am addicted to porn for 8 years now and I want to break apart .

She gave me hope and said she will b there whenever I needed to talk .

THOUGH she told me she has lost interest in getting physical with anyone in future and not aroused by any stuff,she seems to be asking in depth about the dream

 

Oh, I will talk face to face next time I get into such situations

 

Youre Right @We CAN Do This! I Crave To get into Relationship with Stunning girl( not particularly the dream one) I realised that.However I also feel like im always going to be single because no matter what the situation,Girls whom i like just make friends with me and Full Stop.Nothing more

 

What do I need to kick