Gaunter O'Dimm
Fapstronaut
Trigger warning
Hey y'all,
First things first, pardon my bad English, I'm not a native speaker.
I'm an eighteen-year-old freshman and I've been addicted to hardcore femdom porn my entire life. I've never told anyone about it because, understandably, I think it's extremely embarrassing.
The thing is, it's been with me since my early childhood.
Looking back, I realize I never used so-called normal porn at all. Whether i jerk off to fantasies or porn, the scenario is always all about extreme female domination.
I first realized i was an addict when i was 13.
Since then i've been trying desperately to quit, but as time goes on, I'm not getting anywhere, and my tastes are getting more and more extreme. My longest streak was 15 days and I've never gone any further coz after five days or so, abstinence becomes ABSOLUTELY UNBEARABLE. I start having constant fantasies and erotic dreams and eventually i relapse.
The genres i use make me disgusted with myself. At first it was things like facesitting, foot fetish, than i switched to trampling, ballbustung, cuckold porn and stuff like that. I even watch SCAT porn.
Recently got another crazy fetish, the premature one.
Because of all this, I've only had one girlfriend so far. That happened when i was 17 and she was 30, coz I'm not attracted to girls my age, i prefer women much older than me. So, I found her on a bdsm dating site and our relationship lasted about half of a year.
She did like femdom so i was over the moon and didn't even jerk off at that time.
When six months passed, she left me. Said it's unhealthy shit.
Even though I'm only 18, I'm deeply depressed.
I feel that my life is ruined, i can't live without femdom. It's the only thing that brings me a fleeting sense of happiness. I've never had any real friends.
I want to have a normal girlfriend and create a normal family, but i understand it's impossible because I'm into milfs and all that femdom shit. I have problems with my boner. Nothing but femdom excites me at all.
Please give advice. What do i do, how can i deal with that? Are problems like this fixable?
Thank you for reading until the end.
Hey y'all,
First things first, pardon my bad English, I'm not a native speaker.
I'm an eighteen-year-old freshman and I've been addicted to hardcore femdom porn my entire life. I've never told anyone about it because, understandably, I think it's extremely embarrassing.
The thing is, it's been with me since my early childhood.
Looking back, I realize I never used so-called normal porn at all. Whether i jerk off to fantasies or porn, the scenario is always all about extreme female domination.
I first realized i was an addict when i was 13.
Since then i've been trying desperately to quit, but as time goes on, I'm not getting anywhere, and my tastes are getting more and more extreme. My longest streak was 15 days and I've never gone any further coz after five days or so, abstinence becomes ABSOLUTELY UNBEARABLE. I start having constant fantasies and erotic dreams and eventually i relapse.
The genres i use make me disgusted with myself. At first it was things like facesitting, foot fetish, than i switched to trampling, ballbustung, cuckold porn and stuff like that. I even watch SCAT porn.
Recently got another crazy fetish, the premature one.
Because of all this, I've only had one girlfriend so far. That happened when i was 17 and she was 30, coz I'm not attracted to girls my age, i prefer women much older than me. So, I found her on a bdsm dating site and our relationship lasted about half of a year.
She did like femdom so i was over the moon and didn't even jerk off at that time.
When six months passed, she left me. Said it's unhealthy shit.
Even though I'm only 18, I'm deeply depressed.
I feel that my life is ruined, i can't live without femdom. It's the only thing that brings me a fleeting sense of happiness. I've never had any real friends.
I want to have a normal girlfriend and create a normal family, but i understand it's impossible because I'm into milfs and all that femdom shit. I have problems with my boner. Nothing but femdom excites me at all.
Please give advice. What do i do, how can i deal with that? Are problems like this fixable?
Thank you for reading until the end.
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