Trigger warning Hey y'all, First things first, pardon my bad English, I'm not a native speaker. I'm an eighteen-year-old freshman and I've been addicted to hardcore femdom porn my entire life. I've never told anyone about it because, understandably, I think it's extremely embarrassing. The thing is, it's been with me since my early childhood. Looking back, I realize I never used so-called normal porn at all. Whether i jerk off to fantasies or porn, the scenario is always all about extreme female domination. I first realized i was an addict when i was 13. Since then i've been trying desperately to quit, but as time goes on, I'm not getting anywhere, and my tastes are getting more and more extreme. My longest streak was 15 days and I've never gone any further coz after five days or so, abstinence becomes ABSOLUTELY UNBEARABLE. I start having constant fantasies and erotic dreams and eventually i relapse. The genres i use make me disgusted with myself. At first it was things like facesitting, foot fetish, than i switched to trampling, ballbustung, cuckold porn and stuff like that. I even watch SCAT porn. Recently got another crazy fetish, the premature one. Because of all this, I've only had one girlfriend so far. That happened when i was 17 and she was 30, coz I'm not attracted to girls my age, i prefer women much older than me. So, I found her on a bdsm dating site and our relationship lasted about half of a year. She did like femdom so i was over the moon and didn't even jerk off at that time. When six months passed, she left me. Said it's unhealthy shit. Even though I'm only 18, I'm deeply depressed. I feel that my life is ruined, i can't live without femdom. It's the only thing that brings me a fleeting sense of happiness. I've never had any real friends. I want to have a normal girlfriend and create a normal family, but i understand it's impossible because I'm into milfs and all that femdom shit. I have problems with my boner. Nothing but femdom excites me at all. Please give advice. What do i do, how can i deal with that? Are problems like this fixable? Thank you for reading until the end.
First, you need to find something that will excite you. Exercise, music, films, just something that'll get your mind off porn. If you're into older women, there's nothing wrong with that but maybe if you recover, your tastes will change. The main thing is, sex isn't everything and you need to get excited about life and find someone you can be honest to about your addiction and can help you beat it
Thanks for your reply! Truth be told, I do have a lot of activities in life. I go to the gym daily now, have a lot to do at the university, am learning foreign languages. The problem is, I just can't do anything listed above if i don't watch some porn or fantasize. If i don't do that, i have no energy to work. I'll try my best to recover.
I really doubt it's possible to find someone who'll be able to help me with that not thinking of me as a fucking pervert, but I'll try to.
@Gaunter O'Dimm You are young. If you work hard now, no pun, you can beat it. Sorry, nofap humor. First, you are ignorant of the problem. So was I and everyone else until we got educated. So, you have to get educated. Start here, the best video ever created explaining the neuropsychological basis of what we call "porn addiction." Secret: no one has ever been addicted to porn. Next, you need to take some time and study your problem at this website: https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/ Put the time in now, and you will get better and have a happier life. Much love. W
Thanks a lot for your reply. I actually watched this video quite a while ago, but not that it helped me much. Will learn the site you mentioned, do hope it'll help as now the only solution i see is to get myself castrated
Hey bud - I’ve just read your post and see similarities. You’re young - and I see my addiction as way worse than yours… as I got my kicks from being dominated by male masters!!! And I’m not gay! seriously - till 88 days ago I just didn’t know how to stop! but I have stopped… in 2 days I’ll be 90 days clean which is so awesome! I now get morning Woody most days and absolutely adore my wife for the first time in years! Porn is fucked!! It’s dangerous! We seek more and more intense shit to get the kick of dopamine we crave! the only way out I see is a dopamine reset - a hard mode reboot. And think of it as a dopamine addiction not a porn addiction is my advice. I can promise you there is life and great life on the other side. But you will have to dig deep and show determination you can’t imagine right now buddy!! But it’s so amazingly worth it buddy!
I've been doing a thing you guys call monk mode for 2 days already. Here's the list of activities i'm into: - no PMO - no fantasizing - no social media, games, tv, YouTube, news - no alcohol, nicotine, drugs of any kind - no unhealthy food - pray - meditation - 30 pages reading - cold showers + wim hof - 30 min+ workout - 8 hours of sleep Gonna do that for a year, let's see what it turns out.
it only is unbearable if you BELIEVE it is. Learn to find joy in the struggle and the heroism of your abstinence. if you see it as a chore none can succeed.. see it as fun and anyone will triumph.
